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Dec 01, 2012 - 0 comments
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well this is the first entry in something that we will see if i can keep up. I put a lot of things on amazon to see if they will sell. so far the smallest priced item has sold so far. I have spent way to much money lately and it isn't because i need to its because i have an addiction to spending money and i need to work on it. I thought I had it under control and then black friday and cyber monday hit and that just screwed me over.

I try to tell my wife about it and she doesn't want to hear anything that I say. she doesn't understand why i do the things i do and doesn't think that i care at all about her because i'm ok with spending money like we have a ton of it. I told her that because i don't get much affection from her i turn to spending money even though as soon as i'm done spending the money i feel like ****. She thinks that because i put it that way that i'm just turning everything around so it is her fault. i am now beginning to realize how defensive she is after 13 years of marriage.

I don't know how to fix anything and all i can think of is putting a little bit of anti freeze in my drink and seeing if that puts me in the grave or in the hospital in severe pain. One has got to punish me enough for putting every one around me through troubles that they don't deserve.

Well thats enough for today lets see if I can remember to do this tomorrow.



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