New Week...New Hope

Dare I say, I had a pretty good weekend.  My wife and I spent Saturday looking at houses in the area.  I think we are going to move to our next home to expand the family.  I have realized throughout this whole process, especially the second time around, that even though this hit me hard when the anxiety came back after a couple of years about not worrying about this, there is still so much positive that has come from this.  

I am learning to appreciate just waking up and going outside.  Life is a gift, and not everyone gets to have it.  Just looking at homes, spending time with friends, and going to Church was such a relaxing weekend.  Now, I still worry, and do not pretend everything is ok, but if I learn to appreciate the little things, which I often do not because life can be so hectic, then I can chalk this up as another ‘plus’ from a ‘negative’ situation.  

I am sometimes so skeptical about people telling me it is all in the attitude, but the people here on this forum are so right; by making an adjustment instead of focusing on the negative and appreciating the positive things in life it has helped tremendously.  Now, my biggest fear is falling backwards into the panic/anxiety/panic cycle.  I am still in the cycle, but there is hope because of what I read here on a daily basis.  Again, this day is a gift and once it is gone, it is gone forever, so the choices that I make today will govern how today turns out.