Mar 11, 2008
yes for those who are wondering
how the doctors went
what i told her
.... the truth??
most of it
Um except about the self harm.
Told her i was due for a tetanus vacc though so got one of them
she didnt suspect anything.
Um about the food thing...
when she said
"how do you feel about it? like what do you mean?"
i was lost for words.
like i really didnt know what to say!!
i tried to explain that it was complex
like it wasnt a weight thing it was more of a control thing
or depriving myself of stuff i like...
but i didnt want to be skinny sick looking..
but there is this voice in my head that tells me a shouldnt have it
and that i freak out if i eat food that doesnt have the nutrition values on it
coz i like to know.
had a MINOR panic attack while telling her this
is just like a wanted to blurt everything out
but i didnt know how to word it
and when she asked how i felt
i dont know how i feel really.
like i love food
but hate it so much.
I got numbers of 4 phychs.
she gave me that many because she said there could be a waiting list
and she didnt want me to wait.
that mean she thinks im a nut case right....??
so over all it was ok i guess.
has anyone ever heard of:
the make scars smaller apparently.
anyone tried anything like this or have any other suggestions??