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Mar 14, 2008 06:07AM
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My family came down to visit and it was so good to see them.
told them everything cept the self harm
maybe i will tell them one day depending on how i feel
but ive lied about it now so it might just make things worse
we'll see!
I havent written in 2 days coz the worst thing happened
but then the best thing did
all in two days!!
one of my lecturers was "concerned" and said she didnt think id be able to cope doing the practical part of my studies
and the 3 hour exam i have on monday
followed bu a 2 hour exam
then tuesday-
2 hour exam and a class presentation
and that i should defer my studies.
i was devestated.
like im within the top 5 academically
there are roughy 50 people in the course
so i was like WHAT!!??
paniccckked
(like flipped out..)
but then
the next day
when i talked to face to face she told me that she didnt doubt my capabilities
that i was very bright and diligent
...just struggling at the moment
i love her for her compassion.
so the bad turned into the good!!
coz then....
that was sort of a turning point for me.
the nex tday i got out of bed to go to class just to prove her wrong
to show her that i really can do it :-)
and i know she beleives in me
she knows im struggling
but she is just the best and i dont know what i would do without her support
so yeah :-)
and then i saw my folks last night
they were shocked with the weight i have lost
and then when i wouldnt eat much
(mind u it was more due to the nerves coz i new we eventually would have...
....""that talk""
it was like... ""you have to eat more..""
and like i was spoon fed!! and was refusing!!
and was like... no i know im thin but i feel funny in the tummy
and then we had a talk
and yeah i cant beleive how good they were about it
they wernt ashamed of me
i have the best parents in the world
easter soon.. so after my exams i am going home to the country for a week
to revitalise
and
**gasps**
be fed.
I have also....
after 6 phone calls
got into see a psych.
Appt is monday after the docs in the morning
big step for me
but i do feel good about it :-)
i just want a REASON as to why im feeling as i do
coz i sit here and think how im not normal and all that
but there has to be a reason for it
and it will be good for someone professional to diagnose me
and tell me what im feeling is normal
(if it is..)
so yeh
thats all from me
hope your all doing well
catcha later mates
xlovex
xxxxxx
told them everything cept the self harm
maybe i will tell them one day depending on how i feel
but ive lied about it now so it might just make things worse
we'll see!
I havent written in 2 days coz the worst thing happened
but then the best thing did
all in two days!!
one of my lecturers was "concerned" and said she didnt think id be able to cope doing the practical part of my studies
and the 3 hour exam i have on monday
followed bu a 2 hour exam
then tuesday-
2 hour exam and a class presentation
and that i should defer my studies.
i was devestated.
like im within the top 5 academically
there are roughy 50 people in the course
so i was like WHAT!!??
paniccckked
(like flipped out..)
but then
the next day
when i talked to face to face she told me that she didnt doubt my capabilities
that i was very bright and diligent
...just struggling at the moment
i love her for her compassion.
so the bad turned into the good!!
coz then....
that was sort of a turning point for me.
the nex tday i got out of bed to go to class just to prove her wrong
to show her that i really can do it :-)
and i know she beleives in me
she knows im struggling
but she is just the best and i dont know what i would do without her support
so yeah :-)
and then i saw my folks last night
they were shocked with the weight i have lost
and then when i wouldnt eat much
(mind u it was more due to the nerves coz i new we eventually would have...
....""that talk""
it was like... ""you have to eat more..""
and like i was spoon fed!! and was refusing!!
and was like... no i know im thin but i feel funny in the tummy
and then we had a talk
and yeah i cant beleive how good they were about it
they wernt ashamed of me
i have the best parents in the world
easter soon.. so after my exams i am going home to the country for a week
to revitalise
and
**gasps**
be fed.
I have also....
after 6 phone calls
got into see a psych.
Appt is monday after the docs in the morning
big step for me
but i do feel good about it :-)
i just want a REASON as to why im feeling as i do
coz i sit here and think how im not normal and all that
but there has to be a reason for it
and it will be good for someone professional to diagnose me
and tell me what im feeling is normal
(if it is..)
so yeh
thats all from me
hope your all doing well
catcha later mates
xlovex
xxxxxx
awww....I'm so glad to hear about the support you're receiving!! =) hope you have a good weekend....take care!
88,
That is great. I whole heartedly respect the fact that you are confronting and dealing with these issues head on. You recognize that this is a long hard road, but you are doing it. I commend you for all the hard work and wish you a good weekend.
That is great. I whole heartedly respect the fact that you are confronting and dealing with these issues head on. You recognize that this is a long hard road, but you are doing it. I commend you for all the hard work and wish you a good weekend.
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