Jan 10, 2013
My last entry was 8/15/12. On 8/17/12, my 2 1/2 month old grandson passed away. He died of SIDS. I am having a great deal of trouble with it. My faith has been shaken to the core. My daughter is broken. Some people were very cruel by spreading viscous rumors and lies. Others were so nice and comforting. I miss him more than words will ever be able to express. He died the day after I took my last Fentynal patch off. I did it...I'm off for almost five months. I feel better and have more clarity than ever. I am grieving and I just wonder if I'll ever get my faith back. My daughter is still in a bad relationship with a bad guy. I pray everyday that she will wake up and get far away from him. My three year old grandson has been my sanity. He's great company and I love him so very much. I ask for prayers for me and my family. Thanks and God Bless. I still love my Lord but I just don't understand the unanswerable why.