Jan 15, 2013
I'm supposed to be getting ready for school, but I'm feeling so depressed. I just want to crawl up into a ball and just cry. I honestly hate my life. My family hates me and it seems like they're all against me. I have no help towards reaching my dreams from them. I have to do everything on my own. And I'm so stressed about that. It feels like I'm going to fail. I need help and they don't want to give it to me. I don't have ANY friends. My only friend is my boyfriend and he can be a bit much sometimes. I can't even trust him right now and I know that breaks his heart, but he was dishonest so I can't. I don't know how to just "trust" and "give it another chance". The trust will take time. I just want out of this life. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm so sick and tired of going to seek help from counselors, psychiatrists, and behavioral health centers. I don't want to do this anymore. I want my life... Over.