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Day 9
Mar 15, 2008 12:38PM
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I wish I had been journaling every day so that I could keep track of ups and downs and overall progress. I think it helps to be able to look back and see how far you've come.
I cannot believe that I have made it this far. Before the past 9 days, I had not gone more than several hours in at least three years without a lortab. Even two weeks ago, I would not have imagined that I would really do this. My willpower sucks so I am really proud of myself. I must be out of my mind b/c I am also working on quitting smoking. Glutant for punishment, I guess. No, I have finally made the decision to clean up my life once and for all. I realized that I have been waiting for years for the right time to make the changes I need to make - waiting for less stress, waiting for the right man, waiting for everything at work to be perfect, waiting for everything at home to be perfect, etc., etc. I guess I finally just realized that there never is a perfect time. I am the queen of procrastination and that needs to stop. I have looked back over the past few years and looked at how much of my life I have wasted procrastinating. I'll do it tomorrow, the next day, next week, next month, etc. Not sure why but it finally hit me that we never know how many tomorrows we have left. Today may be it.
I am going to try to start asking myself every time I am tempted to put something off - "would you feel okay about leaving this undone today if you had to answer to God tomorrow?" Or something to that effect. My writing skills aren't up to par and can't seem to find the words I want today.
I am finding that through the withdrawals (which I thought should be done by now), my symptoms vascillate between the physical and mental. I've only had a couple of days where both were bad. Yesterday, I was really sad and wanted to cry all day. Today, my mood is much better but I feel really queasy and have a headache. I did start taking the L-Tyrosine and B Complex from Thomas Recipe yesterday and I wonder if I took too much L-Tyrosine today - I took 2000 mg this a.m. Oh well, at least I'm not as tired as I've been this week. I started taking Chantix to quit smoking about five days ago so I'm going a little more slowly on the smoking than I did with CT from Lortab.
I am so thankful that I found this forum. I really do believe that God led me here. I have met some really great, supportive people who have helped me so much. It is so great to know that I am not alone and that almost every person here is either going through or has gone through what I have. I am really thankful to everyone here who has offered support and encouragement. I am also really thankful to God for getting me this far.
I think today is going to be a great day and I want to check lots off things off of the "to-do" list.
I cannot believe that I have made it this far. Before the past 9 days, I had not gone more than several hours in at least three years without a lortab. Even two weeks ago, I would not have imagined that I would really do this. My willpower sucks so I am really proud of myself. I must be out of my mind b/c I am also working on quitting smoking. Glutant for punishment, I guess. No, I have finally made the decision to clean up my life once and for all. I realized that I have been waiting for years for the right time to make the changes I need to make - waiting for less stress, waiting for the right man, waiting for everything at work to be perfect, waiting for everything at home to be perfect, etc., etc. I guess I finally just realized that there never is a perfect time. I am the queen of procrastination and that needs to stop. I have looked back over the past few years and looked at how much of my life I have wasted procrastinating. I'll do it tomorrow, the next day, next week, next month, etc. Not sure why but it finally hit me that we never know how many tomorrows we have left. Today may be it.
I am going to try to start asking myself every time I am tempted to put something off - "would you feel okay about leaving this undone today if you had to answer to God tomorrow?" Or something to that effect. My writing skills aren't up to par and can't seem to find the words I want today.
I am finding that through the withdrawals (which I thought should be done by now), my symptoms vascillate between the physical and mental. I've only had a couple of days where both were bad. Yesterday, I was really sad and wanted to cry all day. Today, my mood is much better but I feel really queasy and have a headache. I did start taking the L-Tyrosine and B Complex from Thomas Recipe yesterday and I wonder if I took too much L-Tyrosine today - I took 2000 mg this a.m. Oh well, at least I'm not as tired as I've been this week. I started taking Chantix to quit smoking about five days ago so I'm going a little more slowly on the smoking than I did with CT from Lortab.
I am so thankful that I found this forum. I really do believe that God led me here. I have met some really great, supportive people who have helped me so much. It is so great to know that I am not alone and that almost every person here is either going through or has gone through what I have. I am really thankful to everyone here who has offered support and encouragement. I am also really thankful to God for getting me this far.
I think today is going to be a great day and I want to check lots off things off of the "to-do" list.