Jan 22, 2013
I just turned 25, and feel like I've lost an entire year of my life. I'm not sure what happened to 2012, my 24th year. I didn't do much, I have nothing to show for it- I was numb the whole year. Disconnected from friends...No interests...no energy...constant health struggles. The list is endless. I felt defeated for an entire year. I am SICK and TIRED of feeling this way. I know prescription medications are major contributors to these issues. So I'm done. I'm getting off of them. ALL OF THEM! Effexor and Vicodin are my two biggest enemies. They are enablers to my life, pull me down, give me false senses of security, and lure me in to thinking i NEED them. I do need them. That's why this is going to be so hard. I'm thankful for finding this site though. It has so many helpful and healing aspects to it.
I also just ordered a hypnosis therapy CD to listen to on my iPod every night before bed. It's supposed to be directed towards healing the body through the power of the mind. It'll be at my house by Thursday and I can't wait to start using it. I also bought a Groupon Chiropractic deal for 4 visits. I'm excited about that because it's something new and hopefully will be a positive way to manage my pain long term, instead of relying on the short-term, very temporary relief of Vicodin.
I'm hoping that the support of others on this site will help a lot too. I'm willing and open to try absolutely anything that will make this journey easier and enlightening. My hope is to look back at this time and be THANKFUL for it because of it's contribution to who I become and what I accomplish, and maybe even lives I touch.