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The start of my journey...

Jan 22, 2013 - 1 comments
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My Journey

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Pain

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Health

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Hope

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medication

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Vicodin

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Effexor

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withdrawals

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Depression

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dealing with anxiety



I just turned 25, and feel like I've lost an entire year of my life. I'm not sure what happened to 2012, my 24th year. I didn't do much, I have nothing to show for it- I was numb the whole year. Disconnected from friends...No interests...no energy...constant health struggles. The list is endless. I felt defeated for an entire year. I am SICK and TIRED of feeling this way. I know prescription medications are major contributors to these issues. So I'm done. I'm getting off of them. ALL OF THEM! Effexor and Vicodin are my two biggest enemies. They are enablers to my life, pull me down, give me false senses of security, and lure me in to thinking i NEED them. I do need them. That's why this is going to be so hard. I'm thankful for finding this site though. It has so many helpful and healing aspects to it.
I also just ordered a hypnosis therapy CD to listen to on my iPod every night before bed. It's supposed to be directed towards healing the body through the power of the mind. It'll be at my house by Thursday and I can't wait to start using it. I also bought a Groupon Chiropractic deal for 4 visits. I'm excited about that because it's something new and hopefully will be a positive way to manage my pain long term, instead of relying on the short-term, very temporary relief of Vicodin.
I'm hoping that the support of others on this site will help a lot too. I'm willing and open to try absolutely anything that will make this journey easier and enlightening. My hope is to look back at this time and be THANKFUL for it because of it's contribution to who I become and what I accomplish, and maybe even lives I touch.

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by Jessika69, Jan 25, 2013
Hello again,
   Being absolutely brand new to this site, as I just happened upon it & you, I didn't see this post until after I commented on the only one I did see & read from you. It is amazing now reading this after I commented on the other one as the things I told you, with only knowing so little about you, we are so like minded as to all the good that will be coming your way & that I was able to absorb your personal feelings & intentions without reading them on this post 1st! (If that makes any sense to you, lol).
   I just need to say again GOOD LUCK but it is not luck that will choose your path, it will only make you feel as if something greater is "helping you" or "giving you a break" but we often don't remember the "lucky" times but the "unlucky" events that happen to us. I too suffer from sever chronic pain, from 4 car accidents which none were my fault, wrong place at the wrong time! How's that for bad luck, lol. I believe luck is made & a result of our choices we make each moment of our life.
   I wish you "luck" with continuing to make good choices for yourself & for your body. I hope you can join a gym or make a gym at your home. You can often find a lot of free equipment on line in local classified sites! I am going to bed, can barely keep my eyes open but you inspired me to write to you & to push through the tiredness because if you can push through what you are then I can push through being over tired...or anything else difficult I may face & will now deal with head on & with a smile as I will be thinking of you kicking me gently in the butt & reminding me I can do it, if you can do what you are doing!
   I so hope you can find better ways to manage your pain & getting healthy & working out, eating right will all give you strength, confidence, added will power & the stronger you get your body, the stronger it will be to fight the pain, possibly even alleviate or correct some of the pain!!
   All the best to you, now & always!!

Amen
Jessika
xoxoxo
  

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