Well, today was good for crohns and migraines but the emotional is all over the place. I am afraid that I will never be able to handle my son. Feeling hopeless, frustrated, all the things I checked above, which is alot. I just do not know what to do anymore. I did give in to him tonight because grandma and dad were here and my grandmas like "just leave it alone and come out here". I wish my dad was more of a positive in his life but all he does is yell and cut him down. I don't know what to do. Hoping things will go better tomm. Hoping he will be good for his birthday tues. Do not want a horrible birthday, I am so depressed about this and worried. I'll keep writing later tomm.