Jan 28, 2013
I feel super depressed right now. It just hit me. I've been really forgetful today to the point of walking back and forth because I forget something and on top of that, I can't make up my mind about what to do and what order to do it in. I usually have decision-making issues, but it is especially bad today. It's my second day without Vicodin. I'm really hoping it's because of withdrawals. I craved it the first day off of it, but not today. I've thought about it but I didn't have those frantic urges to search for it and try to get my hands on some.
I honestly feel like dying right now. I feel like my life will never change from this state. I don't know if it's the medications or if it's just me.
I have insomnia. When i go to sleep I oversleep. When I woke up today I felt energetic but it only lasted 2 hours. I can't continue living life this way.
If someone told me right now that my life will remain this way I honestly think I'd kill myself.
I don't have any other thoughts.