Feb 01, 2013
As soon as it hits midnight I will officially be FIVE days free of Vicodin! I'm beyond excited. Today is the first day of this week that I've began feeling human. Still drained of energy but I'm assuming it's because my muscles are in shock from laying around for 5 days. I slept so long last night. Fell asleep around 2:40am and woke up at 9:30 from back and stomach pain...But after grabbing a heating pad I was out again until 2:30pm!! When I woke up I was hungry so I made myself get up and realized how much better I felt! I was in shock! I thought it must be a phase and I'll probably feel worse as the day went on but it never happened. I still caved and took my adderall at 7:30 but I had stuff I wanted to do and wanted more focus. I still shouldn't have taken it, though. I should only be taking it for school or work purposes and nothing in between. It is what it is, I guess...Nothing I could do about it now. I just have to keep moving forward and attempt to get the adderall intake back in control. I have a feeling I could do it if I just start drinking some coffee instead or like a 5hr energy or something.
I know I still have A LOT ahead of me and a ways to go...but I feel like today was a huge turning point for me and I finally have hope again. I hope each day is like this and only gets better from here. It would suck to wake up tomorrow and feel crummy again!