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IF ONLY I HAD THE COURAGE....

Feb 02, 2013 - 0 comments

If only i had the courage, i would do it. If only i had never existed wnd then no one would realise i was gone. I remeber this morning i woke up with a sigh and this rush of disappointment passed through me. I am sick of waking up every morning abd wasting my life away. My emotions are too strong for me to be able to do anything about it . I wish i had some kind of meds to help. to stop my anxiety, abd sadness.  to stop my paranoid thoughts. to stop me from ruining myself. I hate going into class and knowing that i may be the dumbest out of everyone.  Whats is the point of my life? To get help from others about a problem that never seems to go away??   I dont have strength. why cant i just shut myself in my room and not come out? or run away? Please let me die....I know my problems dont seems like anything to others.... but they are so big to me. especially with my thoughts abd beliefs.  I am slowly giving up, so if you may..... god give me strength.... i beg of you....

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