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Mar 03, 2009 - 1 comments







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I feel... stretched.  Like I'm ready to fly apart like the pieces of an overinflated balloon.  I am looking at my kids, divorce, psychological issues, relationship issues, all of this... I don't know where to start.

I stared at an application for social services for an hour.  My brain just wouldn't do it.  Nope, nuhuh... Does not compute.

I'm tired... I want to go to my "comfort" zone of self-harm... and yet I don't want to.  I want to for me, don't want to for everyone else.  I am so confused and overwhelmed.  I used to be smart and independent and courageous... now look at me.  A mere husk of that person who ran construction work with quiet direction.

I hope I can hold on for everyone.

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by ILADVOCATE, Mar 06, 2009
If you need help with benefits applications or any other practical assistance of any kind your local independent living center is a great resource. There's one in every county of every state:

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