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Bad Weekend
Mar 17, 2008 10:41PM
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Well I am not sure where to start.I guess that I will start on Friday night when my husband came in. I tried to have a positive outlook about him being here. I decided to try and talk a little to him. I told him more of what was going on and that ms was in the family. He really made me feel so stupid, by laughing and telling me that I just have a pinched nerve.What!!! I must have a lot of pinched nerves. It just was not worth going over with him.
He went on about how I need to take it easy and not do too much. Well Great, I thought. He got on to me for doing a load of laundry saying that I didn't need to be bending over. I had to hear about that if I would just lay down and prop my feet up I would feel better. Again I thought great. I am tired and he is home, maybe I will rest and let him take over.All did not go as easy as It sounds.
Saturday I woke up at 11 and I really felt pretty good until i realized that my husband was gone to town. I found out that my 13 year old and 15 year old watch the 4 year old and 5 month old since about 8 that morning.My husband ohad left orders for them to clean the house and care for both babies and not to wake me up. I was a little upset by this. because I think that s a little too much for a couple of teens to take on, but to look on the bright side they did great. I let that go. Then latter in the day My husband decided that his laundry needed to be done( he always brings me his dirty clothes to wash, guess he can no longer do them). I got up and did them the whole time remembering the lecture I got the day before about doing our clothes.I let that go. A little while later I was holding the baby while I am sitting down and had to listen to him complain that I didn't need to be holding the baby because of the extra weight on my back( baby now weighs 13 lbs.). I just ignored him.
The night went as usual.I had to tell him that there was no way that I was going to let him pop my back. He likes to do this by having me lay in the floor and he puts his hands on my shoulders apply his weight until something pops.I am 5 2 and weigh 110, he is 5 11 and weighs 360.Then I had to beg him not to squeeze my legs,because it really hurts and he thinks that it is funny.The whole time I am sitting in my little corner of the bed because he needs to spread out sideways across it. GOD PLEASE GIVE ME PATIENCE! I finally got to go to sleep.
Sunday was really something.I was so tired. and my back and legs were hurting I had eye pain and kept feeling dizzy. I had to listen to my husband yell at the kids over everything and I mean everything.He yelled over the way that cooked the eggs, the way that they vacuumed, the way that they dressed, You get the picture. Then he spends the extra time he has wanting me to wait on him. I spent all day Sunday trying to keep the older kids calm and caring for the younger two. All the while my husband watches t.v. and sleeps.It took everything in me not to blow up after he complained about me being in pain.He now wants me to ice my arm because it is red ans swollen. I Tried to tell him that I did not hurt it and that putting Ice on my arm is not going to do any thing just to be told that my sciatic nerve is pinched and I need to let him pop my back.
I thought that day was never going to end.
Today was it. I could no longer take it. I was literally watching the clock for him to leave. I went to help my oldest put up one of our mals when I noticed that he was crying. I asked what was wrong and was told that my husband HIT him in the eye.That was it. I first made my son come in and ice his eye hoping to stopping the swelling. Then I had it out with my husband.
I just don't get it. Why can't he be like he used to be. I used to be able to talk to him and we were best of friends. Now I can't stand him. I can't trust him around my kids. I van not depend on him to there for me. It is like I am alone.
I will figure out a way to finish my licensing for real estate and learn to raise four kids and be alone before I live in total he**. Today I feel the worst that I have felt in a long time and I am sure it is because of the stress that he brought on to me. I just wish that things were different.
Well tomorrow is a new day and a new beginning. I am going to stay positive and find a way for everything to work out for me. I will not let someone weather it be my husband or someone else bring me down.
He went on about how I need to take it easy and not do too much. Well Great, I thought. He got on to me for doing a load of laundry saying that I didn't need to be bending over. I had to hear about that if I would just lay down and prop my feet up I would feel better. Again I thought great. I am tired and he is home, maybe I will rest and let him take over.All did not go as easy as It sounds.
Saturday I woke up at 11 and I really felt pretty good until i realized that my husband was gone to town. I found out that my 13 year old and 15 year old watch the 4 year old and 5 month old since about 8 that morning.My husband ohad left orders for them to clean the house and care for both babies and not to wake me up. I was a little upset by this. because I think that s a little too much for a couple of teens to take on, but to look on the bright side they did great. I let that go. Then latter in the day My husband decided that his laundry needed to be done( he always brings me his dirty clothes to wash, guess he can no longer do them). I got up and did them the whole time remembering the lecture I got the day before about doing our clothes.I let that go. A little while later I was holding the baby while I am sitting down and had to listen to him complain that I didn't need to be holding the baby because of the extra weight on my back( baby now weighs 13 lbs.). I just ignored him.
The night went as usual.I had to tell him that there was no way that I was going to let him pop my back. He likes to do this by having me lay in the floor and he puts his hands on my shoulders apply his weight until something pops.I am 5 2 and weigh 110, he is 5 11 and weighs 360.Then I had to beg him not to squeeze my legs,because it really hurts and he thinks that it is funny.The whole time I am sitting in my little corner of the bed because he needs to spread out sideways across it. GOD PLEASE GIVE ME PATIENCE! I finally got to go to sleep.
Sunday was really something.I was so tired. and my back and legs were hurting I had eye pain and kept feeling dizzy. I had to listen to my husband yell at the kids over everything and I mean everything.He yelled over the way that cooked the eggs, the way that they vacuumed, the way that they dressed, You get the picture. Then he spends the extra time he has wanting me to wait on him. I spent all day Sunday trying to keep the older kids calm and caring for the younger two. All the while my husband watches t.v. and sleeps.It took everything in me not to blow up after he complained about me being in pain.He now wants me to ice my arm because it is red ans swollen. I Tried to tell him that I did not hurt it and that putting Ice on my arm is not going to do any thing just to be told that my sciatic nerve is pinched and I need to let him pop my back.
I thought that day was never going to end.
Today was it. I could no longer take it. I was literally watching the clock for him to leave. I went to help my oldest put up one of our mals when I noticed that he was crying. I asked what was wrong and was told that my husband HIT him in the eye.That was it. I first made my son come in and ice his eye hoping to stopping the swelling. Then I had it out with my husband.
I just don't get it. Why can't he be like he used to be. I used to be able to talk to him and we were best of friends. Now I can't stand him. I can't trust him around my kids. I van not depend on him to there for me. It is like I am alone.
I will figure out a way to finish my licensing for real estate and learn to raise four kids and be alone before I live in total he**. Today I feel the worst that I have felt in a long time and I am sure it is because of the stress that he brought on to me. I just wish that things were different.
Well tomorrow is a new day and a new beginning. I am going to stay positive and find a way for everything to work out for me. I will not let someone weather it be my husband or someone else bring me down.