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tired and hopeless

Mar 05, 2009 - 0 comments
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I haven't been  doing to well lately....I should be happy, I have a bf I have the job I wanted finally which will sooon turn into full time..Im 28 I should be having the time of my life..But no im miserable and have heaches everyday and am so tired.......I can barely function, im just doing the bare minimum to get by, I should be excelling at my job...I look exahusted all the time and makeup doesnt cover it anymore....I should be working two jobs and wprking out and going out with my friends...no matter what i do i cant get happy....meds positive talk, thereapy, journaling, trying to change the way i think....prob would be easier if i wasnt so exahusted all the time....no one uderstands what its like, they think its just normal tiredness, but its cripiling.......Ive been feeling bad lately, theres this guy at workl i used to date i blew my change with him years ago then his gf got preg and then they got married , i always thought he was the one, but i see him everyday, he has it together, a good job, a his own famiy his own house...it makes me feel so bad...im in debt, living in my moms basement...i cant do much to get myself out of this becasue i feel so out of it all the time...i just want a little relief....ive lost hope ill ever feel better......dr doesnt know what to do with me anymore sinc eim so sensitive to the meds........i just wish i could be ok ....drs have been playing with my meds lately, actually for the last 2 years....i know my brain isnt working right, thats why i cant do the things i want, why im so tired and sick, i just need a little bit of a med to give me a boost........

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