Feb 12, 2013
Well, I'm down to 5.5 Norcos as of yesterday. Feeling pretty good - no horrible physical withdrawals (some minor ones, like aches and RLS in the mornings)... mentally trying to stay strong. That's the tough part. Anxiety and just adjusting my lifestyle to one that's not fogged by a strong, constant buzz. Noticing that I'm scared to do a lot of things... and I get in a lot of bad moods. But when I'm in a good mood, it's legit. It's not just because I popped 3 pills. That's actually a cool feeling.
Physical Therapy is still a struggle. Can't ride a bike. Can't do a squat. And I'm 4 weeks out of surgery... I feel like I should be farther along. I haven't used my thigh muscle since June much though.... So, I have a lot of work ahead of me. The patella is still scraping against the bone because I'm not tracking. Hoping in a month, I'll be singing a whole new tune about this STUPID KNEE! And my stupid DEPENDENCY ISSUES!