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Day 14 of Tapering

Feb 12, 2013 - 4 comments
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taper

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norco

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withdrawal

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Pain

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Anxiety

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tapering

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Addiction

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dependency



Well, I'm down to 5.5 Norcos as of yesterday. Feeling pretty good - no horrible physical withdrawals (some minor ones, like aches and RLS in the mornings)... mentally trying to stay strong. That's the tough part. Anxiety and just adjusting my lifestyle to one that's not fogged by a strong, constant buzz. Noticing that I'm scared to do a lot of things... and I get in a lot of bad moods. But when I'm in a good mood, it's legit. It's not just because I popped 3 pills. That's actually a cool feeling.

Physical Therapy is still a struggle. Can't ride a bike. Can't do a squat. And I'm 4 weeks out of surgery... I feel like I should be farther along. I haven't used my thigh muscle since June much though.... So, I have a lot of work ahead of me. The patella is still scraping against the bone because I'm not tracking. Hoping in a month, I'll be singing a whole new tune about this STUPID KNEE! And my stupid DEPENDENCY ISSUES!



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by sandy535353, Feb 12, 2013
Is it possible, that you may never be able to do squats? I have pain in my inner knee joints and cant squat or Ill collapse. Sometimes therapy can actually hurt ones self. I dont think dr's realize that. It wears and tears on my body. I do what I can do and that's that. Bad moods *****, I too get them but then find myself laughing and Im like 3 hours away from the next pill, and the other one already wore off cause im taking little pieces, so yes it feels good to know it's real WTG, little missy.....

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by Miss_Creative, Feb 12, 2013
Hi! No squats? I'm good with that! I HATE THEM. From my understanding, these are low/no impact squats - they aren't deep and there's no additional weight on me. They are just barely testing my knee, to see if it can bend it with any additional body weight using the least amount of pressure on the front of the kneecap right now. If I can't do a little "knee over toe" bend without screaming, it's means I can't use my knees to do basic stuff around the house. I haven't had kids yet! I'm no spring chicken, but probably too young to have such a lack of range in motion :( I hope it gets there. Gotta tell myself this is surgery #2 not surgery #1 - done within 3 months of each other - so I guess it's like double the Physical Therapy to get back into action?! haha (I'll keep telling myself that)

Laughing is gooood when you aren't hopped up on pills :) YAY! You're doing so much better than you were just a week ago!  

Ugh - so I took 5.5 yesterday and was doing good. I dunno. I was taking out the trash, missed the last step of my porch and compressed down on my knee something awful. Icing it now - but having a SHARP pain at the top where the scope went in. I can't describe it really. Feels like I have tissue stuck my joint, and when I bend it - it's pinching all the nerves in it. When I'm not moving it, it's throbbing and hot. Pain level from 1 to 10? Honestly, it's a 9.5. I might have to take 6 of those babies today if I want to drive to the airport later. I HATE going back on a taper. Makes me sad... I don't know what I should do. I already took 1200mg of Ibuprofen today, so that's not an option. I'm just going to take one now - an hour earlier than I should and see how I do. I'm such an idiot klutz. I better not have done something bad!

  

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by Miss_Creative, Feb 12, 2013
*"no additional weight on me" meaning - I don't have outside weights on my shoulders.

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by sandy535353, Feb 12, 2013
oh gosh Carrie, I feel your pain, I have also taken before the time is alotted, but then I stretch the next one to make up the difference. Never ever feel bad for taking a step back. I was told by a dr, that it has to be done sometimes. It sounds like you really hurt yourself. You are doing great. You jumped a few weeks ago from so much to 6 so donnot be hard on yourself. Keep ice then heat on it, and maybe you should call the dr in the morning and have a look at it.

I ate like a horse today, I feel like a beached whale. Cat fish, shrimp, mixed veggies and mashed potatoes. My appetite is coming back. Uoooooooooo. lol

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