My first time

So this is my first journal entry.  I have been feeling ill for months, actually about a year now, and no one can seem to figure out what is wrong with me.  I am 20 years old, and I know its not normal to feel like this.  I got tested about 6 months ago and everything came back completely negative, normal enzyme levels, negative hep panel, all other blood tests were fine.  They told me nothing was wrong with me.  Well up until a couple weeks ago, i convinced myself that everything was in my head and that nothing was wrong with me at all, then everything came rushing  back.  After many days of trying to convince myself that a test after 6 months would be completely accurate, I finally decided i just needed to know once and for all either way, either accept the diagnosis and move on with my life, or if its not hep, then i do need to find out what it is...  I sit here wondering how tomorrow will almost certainly determine the rest of my life, and I pray that everything turns out all right, and that God has mercy on me tomorrow as I await the results.  I don't know if I am strong enough to handle them, but tomorrow will tell all!  Its funny how life turns out sometimes.  You'd like to think that the good are rewarded and the bad are punished, the older I get the more my view of a just world is being shatterred.  Its funny how we all rush to grow up so fast and be an adult, now how do I make it stop? lol  If anyone does read this, i wish you the best of luck, i really do from the bottom of my heart.  And i feel for anyone who has ever been/will ever be in this position, its not easy, and hopefully it only makes us stronger.  That which doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, right?  Well goodnight to all and hopefully tomorrow finds me healthy, or atleast brings me peace of mind!