the journey of TTC ahead of me
Mar 19, 2008 07:30AM
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again I'm using an email that was sent to my friend for this journal...
im looking forward to becoming preg again although im scared more than ever....
i lost my baby boy at 16 weeks but I found out he was completely healthy so it wasnt a genetic disorder which was some good news...now the doc feels they need to do testing to see if they can determine what caused my preterm labor so that i can have a healthy preg next time
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Well, this is a long drawn out process but I have to wait for my hormone level to get back to 0. Last Thurs I was at 59 so by this Thurs I should be at 0. Then I have to wait for my first cycle. I have a follow up on April 3 with my doctor to see where things are and discuss these tests in more detail.
My doc feels that because I went into preterm labor in my 2nd trimester there is a big possibility it will happen again since its most likely something medical. I know my baby was tested and there was nothing genetically wrong so my doctor is doing some tests to rule out things that could cause recurrent miscarriages.
As far as I know right now I'll be getting bloodwork done around my cycle to test for blood diseases that could have caused this. Also once I have my first cycle I dont know if my doc is going to make me wait til my next one to see what my cycles are like but she will be sending me for an HSG (a scan of my uterus and fall. tubes). An nomaly (sp) in the uterus could cause what happened to me this time to happen again and I dont want that so I have to get this testing done.
Once my bloodwork is back and the HSG is done and hopefully nothing is found the doc will give me the go ahead to try and get preg again.
Thats where even more nerves come in. I''m going to be treated as if I have an incompetent cervix since my doc believes that is part of what happened to me but there is no testing that can be done. So once I make it to 14 weeks I'll get a stitch in my cervix and it will be removed at 36 weeks. I'll have an ultrasound every 2 weeks to check for any complication and thinning of my cervix. I'm going to be high risk and possibly will be seeing a specialist as well as my regular OB doctor. I'll also be on light duty the entire time. No lifting, carrying, or bending and my doc said the more I follow those insturctions the longer I can ride out complete bedrest but its likely that I'll be on bedrest anytime after 20 weeks depending on my cervix and other things. She also told me that it is very unlikely I will carry to full term but she will get me as far along as possible.
So given everything going on I have about 6-8 weeks of testing. Then if we do decide to get preg again I wont really be able to enjoy being preg I'll be a basket case the entire time and right now the whole bedrest means My bf would have to financially support which he's not in a position to do so I dont know when we are going to try again. There's just so much at stake.
So Im on an endless emotional roller coaster. I really want to have a baby but there's just so much to go through and I'm scared regardless. This whole episode has put a strain on him and I think he's scared to try again for the fear of this happening.
I'm just hoping with time it gets easier.
im looking forward to becoming preg again although im scared more than ever....
i lost my baby boy at 16 weeks but I found out he was completely healthy so it wasnt a genetic disorder which was some good news...now the doc feels they need to do testing to see if they can determine what caused my preterm labor so that i can have a healthy preg next time
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Well, this is a long drawn out process but I have to wait for my hormone level to get back to 0. Last Thurs I was at 59 so by this Thurs I should be at 0. Then I have to wait for my first cycle. I have a follow up on April 3 with my doctor to see where things are and discuss these tests in more detail.
My doc feels that because I went into preterm labor in my 2nd trimester there is a big possibility it will happen again since its most likely something medical. I know my baby was tested and there was nothing genetically wrong so my doctor is doing some tests to rule out things that could cause recurrent miscarriages.
As far as I know right now I'll be getting bloodwork done around my cycle to test for blood diseases that could have caused this. Also once I have my first cycle I dont know if my doc is going to make me wait til my next one to see what my cycles are like but she will be sending me for an HSG (a scan of my uterus and fall. tubes). An nomaly (sp) in the uterus could cause what happened to me this time to happen again and I dont want that so I have to get this testing done.
Once my bloodwork is back and the HSG is done and hopefully nothing is found the doc will give me the go ahead to try and get preg again.
Thats where even more nerves come in. I''m going to be treated as if I have an incompetent cervix since my doc believes that is part of what happened to me but there is no testing that can be done. So once I make it to 14 weeks I'll get a stitch in my cervix and it will be removed at 36 weeks. I'll have an ultrasound every 2 weeks to check for any complication and thinning of my cervix. I'm going to be high risk and possibly will be seeing a specialist as well as my regular OB doctor. I'll also be on light duty the entire time. No lifting, carrying, or bending and my doc said the more I follow those insturctions the longer I can ride out complete bedrest but its likely that I'll be on bedrest anytime after 20 weeks depending on my cervix and other things. She also told me that it is very unlikely I will carry to full term but she will get me as far along as possible.
So given everything going on I have about 6-8 weeks of testing. Then if we do decide to get preg again I wont really be able to enjoy being preg I'll be a basket case the entire time and right now the whole bedrest means My bf would have to financially support which he's not in a position to do so I dont know when we are going to try again. There's just so much at stake.
So Im on an endless emotional roller coaster. I really want to have a baby but there's just so much to go through and I'm scared regardless. This whole episode has put a strain on him and I think he's scared to try again for the fear of this happening.
I'm just hoping with time it gets easier.