The BIG APOLOGY

After quite a weekend and halfway thru the week and much argueing I got an apology today. I did'nt even sleep last night because this stays on my mind, I've came to the conclusion that he is crazy, he has cussed me out day after day, I suppose this is part of the come down process. So finally today after just crying like crazy, I've decided that it is time to go, I tried to talk to him this morning before he left for work and he is a master at mental cruelty, almost as if he is inhuman, I don't see how someone could watch someone else cry from so far deep inside and he just sits there and call me a stupid *****, *****, why don't you get a life and get the hell out of my house, Is it really possible that anyone can be so mean? He is! I have just decided enough. I go out and start looking for a place to live today after I take my daughter to the dr., and he calls to check on her and I tell him that I've been looking at places to rent, then he starts in on me again, so many explecitives it's unreal, but he then proceeds to tell me how I'm messing our daughters life up by moving her out, after, I swear hearing nothing from him since Saturday but get your *** out of my house, It's just like I explained before, he knows I don't have much money. But when I make a move to find something I can afford it just infuriates him, he saids that I will be the reason our daughter will be so F'd up when she grows up, he's just crazy. I suppose the coke is just getting the best of him, he's destroyed a lot of lives in the process.