My Journal back to my life

Hi.. I totally know where you are coming from. I wish I had some answer to my questions and concerns,
however only my best friend know about my vicodin addiction and I am ashamed to say anything to anyone else or to try
to get help.
I went 3 days without any and that's only b/c I ran out of them. Then yesterday after takling my son to see his pediatrician
which happens to be in the same building where my general practioner is.... I WALKED IN AND ASKED TO SEE THE Md
DUE TO SEVER BACK PAIN. And here i am back on them again!!!

How did your addiction begin?? were you prescribed vicodin for pain??


Trisha

I'm not even sure if it was 6 years ago or way more?? Honestly but it has been a long time. I had gone to a doctor for hand pain then shoulder than spranged ankle which I got when I was too loaded and buzzed on my shopping frenzy. But really all these years I thought I would like see the boogy man or something horrible like grandmal seizure or incredible pain would occur. But really none of that has happened in the past 5 days.  This am.  a guy I know called and said he had 2 80 oxy and needed money. It was the hardest yet , even beyond the cold and the body ache. My mind was going.  Now I'm better but here on this site.   How are you today??

Trisha516, I did the same thing.  I ran out, went through hell, and then got a new prescription.  The weird thing is this time it has put me over the edge.  Maybe I had "detoxed" and my dose is way too high now....I take 4 7.5's a day (or more).  I've become zombied, pain ridden, confused, depressed, suicidal, and just plain crazy.  Really awful.  I even called my doctor for help...which means I'll never get a script from her again....and she has supplied me for 5 years.  I just want to get clean.  Doc wants me to go to ER and maybe get hospitalized.  I wonder if that means a looney bin???

I am feeling good today and have been since I got a new prescription for 15 vicodins. I am only taking two a day to make them last. I have been searching for answers to my question.." what harm have I done to my unborn baby" AND I SEEM TO BE GETTING NO WHERE.  I could just ask my OB, however that means that he probably wont ever give me a prescription again and to be honest with you.... if I wasn't pregnant I really wouldn't want to stop taking vicodin.
That's terrible isn't it?? I'm just not ready to stop. I sit here and thinkg.. " how did I ever live my life without them?"
They give me energy and I feel like I can conquer the world..haha! anyway. for now I HAVE to stop, I have no choice.
I have a few left .. then I will stop cold turkey! I'll let you know how that goes.

How are you feeling? have you taken any ?

Trisha

Good Luck to all of you.  Hi, my name is Jennifer.  I am 36 yrs. old and have beean addicted to opiates (Lortab, Oxycontin) for 16yrs.  I tried several times to quit on my own, but I could not endure the withdrawals.  I then was told about a clinic that would help me get clean.  I went to rehab(detox) twice before then and it worked for a while then I gave back in to my addiction.  The clinic I went to prescribed me Methadone, and at that time I had no idea they were just as addictive and lots better than Lortabs.  Two years later now I am struggling to get off them..  This is 100 times harder to quit than Lortabs, oxys, percs, etc.  The withdrawals are unbearable.  I am slowly tapering down each week, and so far it has been ok, but I have not hit the uncomfortable dose they tell me about.  My counselor advised me to switch to Suboxone when I get down to 25mgs..  She said it takes some of the w/d symptoms away or lessens the severity of them, and then to detox off them.  WOW!!!  This is so messed up for me you see because I have God in my life and for once I really want to be clean.  Look at the price you pay to be energized everyday.  I encourage all of you who are taking them for a way to get by to really consider, however you can, coming down slowly, and then stopping.  The w/d from Tabs, etc.  are a walk in the park compared to Methadone.  Please pray for me.  This is the hardest thing I hae ever tried to do.  With God's help I know I can do it.  Please think about what you are doing to your temple!!  

Hi,  congrats on making it this far.  I noticed that you live in WY and I live in Cheyenne, small world huh.  I mainly read this forum to gain insight since hubby and I work with people that are addicted to drugs or alcohol.  We started this work after my hubby made it free from an alcohol addiction 14 yrs ago.  We teach and use faith-based programs along with TrueThought Corrective Thinking at a facility called the Jericho Center.  The number is 307-433-8110 if you want to talk to someone.

Take care