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VERY VERY FATIGUED....STRUGGLING...

Feb 28, 2013 - 0 comments

I can bearly keep my eyes open at school now....Last night i went to bed at 1:30am, closed my eyes for about an hour and then realised that even though i was imagining things in my head, i wasnt actually asleep.. I eventually fell asleep at around 2:30am. I am not getting enough sleep and as hard as i try to go early i cannot, it is just a habit which is costing me everything at school. Because i feel so dumb and my brain no longer works like it used to. I guess i just have to face it. I will never be as smart as i would have liked, and i will probably begin to fail classes... And my anxiety will get worse....and well what happens next will remain a mystery until the time comes. I no longer enjoy doing homework, and i doubt that i will gt through the senior years of highschool now... I cant do it anymore....I think i have 'burnt out'. One of my teachers last years fear that this would happen, and guess what, she was right.... I just feel like i have no control over what i do whcih sounds silly but i dont know..... I have given up trying in school.... I know i am a let down to eveyone who has tried their best to help me.... and they have in a way, but my anxiety seems to be taking over now.... I......Give..... up.....
I am having a really tired and frustrating day, hopefully tomorrow a better one...

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