Mar 01, 2013
So we arrived at the hospital for 11:30, they took me right back only to be told the OR my Dr was using was still in use so they would get me in about 30 mins, well 12:40 they came got me again started IV I saw the Dr and he said it would prob be another hour til we went in at 2:30 I was wheeled back and told it would be slow going. I came out of surgery at 5:30
When they got in there they found everything to be very adhered,swollen and even thought I may need a bowel retraction(?) thank goodness I didnt
However the GYN and Oncologist GYN determined together there was no way in the future of them being able to retrieve eggs which I do believe as I bent 4 needles on my IVF with Q and the Dr told me he had the hardest time retriveing, SO it was then that they deterimined a full hysterectomy was in order. I do have a tiny bit og cerix and uterus as they were so adhered. They left the spot on my bladder as it hasbt changed in 2yrs and they felt that it will clear with everything else gone now.
I met briefly with the urologist yesterday because my left kidney and ureter I think he said left is so swollen and inflamed he said he will need to do some proc and at that time determine stents, so I will be having another proc outpatient sometime next week or the following
Waking up this go around was very hard. I was awake talking but I couldnt keep my eyes open. Yesterday went better but alot of sleeping still.
DF brought Q over today which is just what I needed she layed with me for a few and I could just tell how much she misses me. DF said she was quiet when they left. They will check me tomorrow and I may get to go home as long as I am passing gas. My stomach is still distended but improved since yesterday.
I appreciate all the thoughts and prayers.
I dont think its really hit me yet. That I will never get to feel life inside me. Quinlan will be a only child. BUt I prayed everynight for just 1 healthy miracle and I told god if I got just 1 I wouldnt be greedy and if I was meant to just have her Id accept it. I do accept it but I am still sad
Im off work fro 8wks right now with the likelyhood of longer I had a rough start out of surgery and even needed a transfusion yesterday.
I fought this disease long and hard and itwas time. I just pray and thank god everyday for our amazing little miracle Quinlan..