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Mar 14, 2009 - 2 comments
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Today started out kind of slow.  I was disoriented when I woke up because The Other called me from Abby's phone, so it was her ring tone, but his voice.  At first I was thinking about whether I should be mad because I thought, "Why the eff would Alex be with Abby?"  It just didn't register, so I went silent.  We ended up going to the Broad Street Market but I lost my appetite and I was annoyed with the surrounding people and a loud little girl.  I could feel a mood festering in myself.  

Abby kept asking, "what do you want to do?" and it gets old.  What we ended up doing was going to Salvo and I scored.  I got a quilt for 2 bucks - do you have any idea how much they are, hand made?  The Amish make them by hand and it runs from 500 up.  Even if you go to an antique store, flea market, or yard sale, it's very rare to find a hand sewn quilt for less than 200.  One time I found the most AWESOME one for like, $10 and it was in great condition.  However when Tim and I did laundry at his mom's house, she "lost" it, aka threw it away because she's mean and racist.  

I also got a neat brown comforter, a super pale green men's button down shirt with front ruffle.  It looks like something would wear from maybe the last 5 decades or so ... you know, a prom shirt?  It was an 2XL, but it was so ugly that it was cool, so I got it because I'm all about altering things.  People I've met like my "sense of fashion" because I'm fairly creative.  I make things "mine".  

I also got a men's generic white button down shirt - I always wear things like that.  I'm into endogenous things and again, making my mark on them.  I got a red tote that I'm going to alter to be a "fun bag".  My "fun bags" are bags that I put things in that I think will keep me entertained if I have to go somewhere.  For example, books, video games for my DS, fill in puzzles, MP3 player, etc.  

I got a sweater, because I love sweaters.  And a cute pair of shoes.  I think that's it.  Oh, and two lingerie tops.  I wear lingerie slips/dresses and tops and you know, "make them mine".  Etc.

I started out in a mood but I felt okay.  Now that I have a headache, I'm a bit sleepy and I think I'm going back into a mood.  The gloomy weather is bothering me, too.  I wish it were warmer.  I also wish I would lose weight faster.  I forgot to go to my last meeting, so I'm pretty sure I gained weight.  I just hope it isn't a lot.  :(  I get so discouraged.  

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by JPW19, Mar 15, 2009
I'm not sure how much handmade quilts run. I want to learn to quilt so badly. I can't find the peddle to the sewing machine my neighbors (adopted grandparents) gave me. The sewing machine $1600 dollars retail! I love it, but it is so high-tech i wonder if i will ever get the hang of it. I love flea markets too, all the vintage stuff is so cool. I get really excited about that stuff too. Since I sew, I alter things and redo or kinda remake them with the material. You show a great deal of creativity. It has been proven that people with mental illess, mainly bipolar are the most creative people. It has to do with the way the neurons pass each other back and forth. Since Bipolars neurons do not travel back and forth efficiently, a boost goes to the creative part of the brain, mainly b/c the creativity part of the brain is very close to the part of our brains that do not function correctly causing the bipolar.
Don't get discouraged, I am always routing for you!

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by hyeyung, Mar 16, 2009
Quilts take way too long to do.  You have to have a lot of patience and be a good seamstress, something that I am not.  When I have to fix something, I do it my way - it's usually not correct, but if it holds, then fine by me.  

My maternal grandmother passed away and I inherited her sewing machine from the 1920's.  I don't want to use it because whenever I try to use a sewing machine, it just doesn't work for me.  Nothing really ever works for me.  Maintenance costs a lot more than it did when she had it.  There is actually a receipt from when she had it last repaired and I think it was like $2.  It's an antique and when I used for this total jerk, Steve Pearlman, he had the same model.  If you want to check out his website, his store is called Atomic Warehouse.  It may be atomicwarehouse.com, iono.  He buys and sells vintage, antique, deco, etc.  The sewing machine wasn't as old as the one I have and it wasn't in as good as condition, but it was listed as $800.  I don't care how much it's worth, I'm not going to get rid of it.  I'm not going to use it, either.  There are some things I just want to put into a safe case or something.  Meme meant a lot to me and she still does.  The things I value the most are things from her.  

My sister in law's great grandmother made my brother a lot of stuff like pillows, blankets, and a "quillow".  It's a quilt that folds up into a pillow.  It's actually very neat.  I wish I was better at sewing.  I'm fairly crafty, but like I said, I don't go about doing things the right way.  

I am sick of the trends today.  Everything is ugly and gaudy.  Another reason I wish I was better at sewing.  I buy a lot of fabric to make stuff into my own since it's hard to find stuff I actually like.  Abby actually wants me to make her a quilt but I said no.  So instead I told her buy fabric, some yarn, and a blanket to sew everything on.  I told her I'd put buttons or something on it.  But she hasn't found a blanket to use, so even though she complains about how she wants it ASAP she hasn't looked for a freaking blanket.  She's so annoying.  

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