No surgery for now.

Went to the gyn/onc on Friday to discuss a hysterectomy.  When I gave them a list of my current meds they asked why I was taking Ativan and Klonipin...I told them about what was going on with Julie.  Dr. Donaldson said that I didn't need the added stress of having major surgery right now and needed to be able to focus on the issues with Julie.  He put me back on continuous bc since that kept my pain away before.  They put me on Lybrel, I'd never heard of it before, apparently it's relatively new.  He said the since it will keep my estrogen level down it will keep the adhesions from growing and should stop my pain.  I asked about he adhesion on the right ovary that is stuck to my colon and he told me that if I had even one sign that it was causing me a problem to call him and we'd revisit the idea of surgery.  He does agree with my RE that hysterectomy is iminent but with the bc we can put it off for a while.  This was my first visit to him and I really like him, he actually listens to me and that means a lot to me.  I have to go back in 6 months and we'll see how my pain is.  He told me to start them on the first Sunday of my next period, which happened to be yesterday...so, maybe just one more painful period...I can only hope.  I am having quite a bit of pain today but I'm dealing with it.

I had promised Julie a month ago that I would take her to the mall so she could buy some new clothes and without thinking about it being Easter Sunday had told her we'd go yesterday...it didn't happen and she was pretty disappointed.  We'd arranged for someone to come to the house at 4:30 yesterday to give us an estimate on a home security system so after church with the in-laws and dinner with my family we went home to wait....he never showed, apparently he'd forgotten, now he's coming tomorrow morning.  I don't know what else to do to make Julie feel safer, right now she's scared to be alone in her own home.  She had a big break down Friday night and cried a lot, we were up until after midnight with her, then I gave her a benadryl...my doc says that's the safest sleep aid to give her, and she was able to sleep.  I certainly don't want her to get dependent on any kind of drug, OTC or otherwise.  We're trying to deal with these issues through therapy and hypnosis and thus far it's working, she's feeling better.