Things have gotten bad with the hubby. Have gone to several doctors for a myriad of physical issues that are clearly based on stress... specifically from his constant yelling and berating. He thinks that I am somehow brainwashing several different professionals who are telling me that I need some time away to work on getting better. Husband says that I am "running away" and that I am perpetuating a fantasy that he is a bad person. He's been my best friend for 23 years, so it's hard to take his emotional abuse. He finally agreed to see a couple's counselor "if only to show me that he is correct and that I am delusional". I may be smart but I am certainly not capable of brainwashing 5 or more doctors and therapists into believing he is emotionally abusive. These are people who, for the most part, don't even know each other. And 99% of them are telling me that for my health and self-preservation that I must leave. Finding this too hard to do. I don't want to upset my daughter and I certainly don't want to leave her with him.
So today has been all about shaking off the screaming and insults he hurled at me this morning before he left for work. Been contacting couple's counselors, dancing around the house while I clean, and doing what I do best-- writing erotica for a new anthology. My thought is that I can't let him wreck the day I have to myself. Learning that I am indeed worth having a decent day! I've decided to tell myself over and over that I ROCK! And so do you, m'friends! Namaste, y'all.