day 4

Ok so today is day 4 of coming off the pain meds.  I am at work and i feel like death i seem to think if i could just loose this CHILL i would feel better i am freaking FREEZING my *** off.  I work in a large apt complex 2139 apartments on site and i am 1 of 2 account managers and a LARGE office staff it is 70 degrees outside so i know if i turn on the heater there all gonna come in here bitching at me.  RGHHH you cant wear anything but uniform at your desk and the blazers we have dont keep you warm so i am stuck to freeze my *** off.  I wish i could go home hop in the bath and try and sleep i am so freaking exhausted.  hopefully all these w/ds will end soon and i can get back to what i was years ago. not that i remember how i was before the pain meds but i am sure it is better than this. I am so grateful for all of the people on here that have given me the suport and the ideas to make it easier.  I asked the doc about suboxone and she said no, that would not work well and to just take some time off work and go thru the w/d's.  Guess they dont understand i cannot take time off work i just got back from having surgery 3 days ago and all my bills are already falling SOOO behind i dont even have a car right now so i am walking everywher.  let me just say walking everywhere while w/d ing is NO NO NO fun at all.  

Well ta ta i gotta get some work done

ME