Mar 25, 2009
My friend Matt used to make fun of me because when I was frustrated, I would always hit the same keys ... every single time. I'm going to make this short. I'm cranky but more apathetic and since I'm apathetic, I'm tired. I had what was a good day turned into a lame one. I have all these people telling me I look, sound, seem different ... in a good way. That I seem better and then I get it in my head that maybe they're right. Why? Because I can't make a decision for my life. Anyway. So I think I'm happy and I feel uncomfortable and actually scared because it's an unfamiliar feeling. It's not happiness. I'm just ... STILL MANIC. I don't want to get into it. I'd rather smash my head against the wall. That's all I feel like doing right now. Smashing myself against stuff. UGHHHHHHHHH.
I AMMMMM FRRRUUUSSSTTRRRAAATTTEEDDDDD!!!!