Here I sit filling out DH's paperwork for the urologists and I feel hopeless. I'm scared of getting MORE bad news :(. We're putting off my surgery until after his appointment because IF things are really bad I'm going to have surgery and whatever the option is to control my endo (since we probably won't EVER conceive :( ) BUT if he gets decent news, needing vitamin's etc. etc...I'll have the surgery anyways and go from there.
I feel guilty though..I've never talked to him about donor sperm..NEVER..but here I'm looking online at donor sperm from places like California Cryobank and NW Cryobank. Anyways, I feel soo guilty for looking at this without him knowing. IS it a possiblity? Scared of how he'd feel about it. Sad about everything that's going on. BLAH!!
Anyone that did Donor sperm, where did you "shop" at ?
This IS never ending. :(