being on Methadone

OK so I started dosing on Methadone a month ago. Started out at 30 migs and went up 10 migs every other day. before going on Methadone i was addicted to Heroin averaging a gram and a half everyday. if I didn't at least get a gram I would start to withdrawal. When I first went for help i was 16 or so but relapsed after attending a few group meetings....I have never been titled to get help...in other words I've never been busted by the police. I went for help again when i was 18. I basically repeated the first time I got help all over again, went to a few meetings and relapsed. I hadn't had  any Methadone treatment at these times of seeking help...I didn't even know it was available. Well the third time I got help was this year at the beginning of February. i went to the E.R. where I live in Cottonwood AZ. They sent me to a local detox center which was horribly unbelievable....seriously you have not witnessed hell until you have been to a government funded detox center....well they were'nt helping me in the least. They were'nt even medicating me and here I am a heroin addict for 5 years and they arent givng me anything for withdrawal symptoms...it was agony. So needless to say i left that place against medical Advice or AMA. After leaving there I enrolled myself in the intensive out-patient therapy at the guidance clinic I had been to two times before the detox center...FINALLY! I got some real help. The lady who was doing intake on me mentioned Methadone therapy seeing as how everything else we've tried has failed. In desperation of being stuck this way for the rest of my life i was ready to try anything including methadone therapy. Thad next Monday I went to Prescott Az. to the Valley medical Center, where they dispensed methadone, and actually saw a doctor that day, and even got my first dose in the same day. The first dose was 30 migs of Methadone, which did absolutely nothing for me at all...but they warned me I wouldn't feel much on the first dose but Its what they start everyone out at so they ca increase your dose slowly. I was set at going up 10 migs every other day. So Monday I had my first 30 migs of Methadone, Wednesday I had 40 migs, Friday I got my first 50 mig dose of methadone, etc. etc. The dose I got every Friday  would be maintained over the weekend then Id go up 10 more on Monday. Hope you all were able to understand all that lol.  Anyway like I said 30 migs didn't do much to help withdrawals. At 40 migs still nothing, but remember I was at a gram and a half of heroin before I sought treatment. So I figured i would probably start to feel better at about 50 or 60 migs. I was right. At 50 migs I started to feel a little better...I was able to sleep for the first time in weeks, and the pain in my bone started subsiding. Between 60 and 100 migs, which is where I'm at now and plan to stay for awhile, I just continued to get better and better. At 100 migs, I can sleep full nights, my appetite is back, my mood is back to normal, and I'm not throwing up every hour, so that was nice lol. i plan to max out at 130 migs. of Methadone, but I won't go up to that for another month or so....i want to make sure I'm totally use to 100 migs before I go any higher. Just like any med, there are side affects from methadone, but along with the withdrawals, they subside after awhile. The most common two Ive noticed, which last about a week after your first dose, are Drowsiness and nausea. Its a small price to pay for bring withdrawal free. Methadone is not something I want to stay on forever cause let's face it, Methadone is just another narcotic, but at least I'm not out stealing and getting into trouble to obtain the drug I need. Eventually I plan to titrate (get off slowly) off of Methadone and live free of all controlled substances. I'm just so glad I found one thats working with me and for me rather than against me. I'm closer to my family now, I have mad amens with my real friends and have built new relationships with them. And instead of spending every moment for a drug that will ultimately destroy me, I'm living every moment for a life that is worth making better. If I can do it, anyone can!