May 08, 2013
I'm just sitting here thinking about how much ANXIETY I was experiencing the first several weeks of wds!! Omg!! They were sooo bad. Now everything is settling down somewhat.
I still will get some anxiety every now and then if I have a social event to attend. But nothing like it was 2 months ago!!
I Finally am starting to get my natural energy back to do my wkouts. Getting those much needed endorphins pumping.
One thing I'm so grateful for is that I'm not numb to everything anymore!!! I never realized how flipping numb I was!! I mean EVErYTHInG. Lol. I love having real emotions. Although at times they are very raw. But they are there!!!
Just want to keep progressing and getting myself better!! I don't want to EVER go back to having to take a pill everyday ever again!! Lame lame lame. Is all that would make me feel like. I hated that. I felt so belittled to have to ask my hubby for a pill everyday. It was embarrassing to me!! A disgrace to myself. I refuse to let that happen again!!
I have come way to far to let that happen. It feels AMazing to wake up and not have the first thing I grab for is a pill!!! AMAzIng!!!!!