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Apr 03, 2009 - 0 comments
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I guess I'm back sooner than I thought.  I've had a lot of disappointments in my life, most of them small but repetitive.  The big ones were anticipated after experiencing all of the smaller ones.  

I'm an honest girl.  I'm comfortable with myself.  I have issues but beyond that, I'm the black sheep of my family, and they know that.  Abby used to call me Kevin because she said I was a man in disguise.  I told her I was reincarnated from a tree.  I could give a rap-cay less about the environment today.  Don't get me wrong, I believe in Eco-friendly products and projects.  However, I don't want to hear you tell me we're killing the environment while you're smoking a cigarette.  

But I digress.

Back to being a man in disguise.  I was a tomboy and that's carried up until the present.  It ties in with being honest and comfortable, and I suppose my issues.  For example, I can hock a loogie/spit like a master.  Sometimes I can gleek, too.  It's just not a lady like thing to do.  I also belch - not burp.  I'm an independent person and if someone feels embarrassed to be around me, that's on them.  I'm not going to judge them, but they can walk away easily if they so desired.  

Despite being a tomboy, I still hold morals, mantras, and etiquette.  Surprisingly, I'm a painfully shy person, but once I warm up to you, it's like a manic mood swing.  I'm a completely different person.  I'm very affectionate and physical.  I will give you hugs and kisses and push you, etc.  I wrestled with my friends and we used to beat each other up because it was fun.  I can understand that not everyone would find this kind of activity very fun, and I respect that.  I usually keep my distance and let the other person speak up.  The way I can drink shots and chug beer should be illegal.  I'm feminine, though.  I don't dress myself to the nines on a daily basis because I'm comfortable with my androgynous but unique style.  Even though I may dawn some basics (I hate fashion today, it's so freaking ugly), I have my own "flair" (if you must) and let's not lie, having big boobs (for my size - they're not ginormous) and a decent face helps out a bit, too.  

If you claim you're not a hypocrite, you're being a hypocrite.  Everyone is, has been, will be, etc.  It's inevitable, but it's not always a bad thing.  Some things are "easier said than done" and if you're giving advice, you're coming from a different perspective.  Anyway.  Everyone can be something, but some people are some things.  Take Abby for example.  There is no word to describe Abby.  You could search the entire dictionary and wouldn't find a thing.  So, Abby is an Abby.  This is my personalized dictionary.  People are unique, eh?  Well why not use them as adjectives?  

Anyway.  None of this is related.  Absolutely none of it.  Just felt like sitting down and posting.  I had something in mind but I forgot.  I have about a five second memory span.  

Peace out, yo.

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