May 16, 2013
Ya! Great to wake up with no fear & 'fright' feelings in tummy & heart. Those demons are gone! Still have tummy pain tho, but goes after cuppa tea with honey. Also take a homeopathic remedy for that. Been struggling with a 'friend' issue. Have let it go. I pray and God delivers on His promises every time! I'm able to forgive, and must now forget and move onto the business of living with joy, peace and LOVE! I want to give joy to my wonderful family, be there for them always. They are my life! So wonderful to be free of that horrific anxiety period I went through. No more meds for me once I'm finally off valium. Had none today and dread the thought that I have to take it, because I've been told it's dangerous to just stop it ct. (I know, cause I tried that . Went 26 hrs without it, and oh boy! I sure see what they mean about the danger. I was a wreck, but still didn't want to give in & take it, as I would feel a failure. Had to in the end,. My darling daughter was here, saw the state I was in and yelled (nicely) "MUM TAKE YOUR B....Y MEDS!" Haha! So had to, and yes, I felt a failure). I hate having to take it, because it makes feel flat, less motivated and just plain ill! Must be patient! Take it as prescribed & not be tempted to take less, to get off it faster, as that will only prolong the weaning off period. (I have been warned!) I'll soon be free of this one, then work on getting free of some pain meds next. Probably have to stay on Gabapentin tho, for darn phantom limb pains. Ooh, they're so weird! Feeling my whole leg & foot. I feel the cold on them, they ache, they cramp, they feel like they're being shot with a taser at times. At least I don't suffer any bad side-effects of gabaP, so I'm thankful for that! Yes, I'm very blessed indeed! Learning not to focus on what's wrong in my life & body, & instead I focus on all the good things, the blessings and I praise God for all that's good!