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May 16, 2013 - 2 comments
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Ya! Great to wake up with no fear & 'fright' feelings in tummy & heart. Those demons are gone! Still have tummy pain tho, but goes after cuppa tea with honey. Also take a homeopathic remedy for that. Been struggling with a 'friend' issue. Have let it go. I pray and God delivers on His promises every time! I'm able to forgive, and must now forget and move onto the business of living with joy, peace and LOVE! I want to give joy to my wonderful family, be there for them always. They are my life! So wonderful to be free of that horrific anxiety period I went through. No more meds for me once I'm finally off valium. Had none today and dread the thought that I have to take it, because I've been told it's dangerous to just stop it ct. (I know, cause I tried that . Went 26 hrs without it, and oh boy! I sure see what they mean about the danger. I was a wreck, but still didn't want to give in & take it, as I would feel a failure. Had to in the end,. My darling daughter was here, saw the state I was in and yelled (nicely) "MUM TAKE YOUR B....Y MEDS!" Haha! So had to, and yes, I felt a failure). I hate having to take it, because it makes feel flat, less motivated and just plain ill! Must be patient! Take it as prescribed & not be tempted to take less, to get off it faster, as that will only prolong the weaning off period. (I have been warned!) I'll soon be free of this one, then work on getting free of some pain meds next. Probably have to stay on Gabapentin tho, for darn phantom limb pains. Ooh, they're so weird! Feeling my whole leg & foot. I feel the cold on them, they ache, they cramp, they feel like they're being shot with a taser at times. At least I don't suffer any bad side-effects of gabaP, so I'm thankful for that! Yes, I'm very blessed indeed! Learning not to focus on what's wrong in my life & body, & instead I focus on all the good things, the blessings and I praise God for all that's good!

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by EvolverU, May 16, 2013
Steph,

I can't believe how different you sound from the lady I first met on the forum! Way to go. It's like you're reborn.
I'm thrilled for you that the anxiety is so much less. You sound like you've gained a lot of strength a long the way. I love to see you posting and journaling too! (This place is pretty amazing, eh?)

Don't feel a failure because of the Valium. Slow and easy wins the race but I hear you when you say you just want off that stuff!
I wish I could meet up with you 'down under' and have a cuppa' with you. Thank you so much for this. I've had a lot of terrible news today, am hurting and you've made me feel much better.

Annie


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by shugalug, May 16, 2013
Oh Annie! Thanks for your kind words. It's great to still have your support & encouragement. We'd be lost without it. I agree, this site has been a real comfort, and I don't feel so lonely in my struggles with my journey of becoming free of meds addictions. Thanks for what you said about the valium too. Yeah, I know it has to be a slow process with this particular med, so will follow the medical advice.on how to do it properly. I'd hate to stuff up with this one! I'm not going to risk getting anxiety again by not taking it as prescribed!
I'm so sorry you've had a lot of terrible news today. Hurting is so hard to bear! I was hurting badly for quite awhile, and wanted to hurt back, but I've been praying for strength & guidance on how to deal with it, and I am comforted. It's good to cry, be angry, feel these emotions, but we can only try to come to terms with whatever is causing hurt, and rest assured that we can let go of it, in time, (always time that heals!) and try not to dwell on it too much. I'm still feeling a little hurt, but each time I pray, I DO get strength & a feeling of peace. It's very hard tho, I know. May God Bess you Annie. You're doing so well, so be proud of yourself for the help & support you've given to others. I hope you get lots of support back, to help lessen your hurt today. Life sure wasn't meant to be easy, but we do have good times in between, and many more to come!

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