May 21, 2013
Starting to get really stressed out now that I will be going onto my third trimester! I feel there is so much to do and just a little time to finish it all, and because pregnant makes you lazy, fatigued, causes horrible back pain that never goes away, etc. My problem is the pain and how fast I get tired, My motivation is pretty high, but my back pain is causing me not to do anything. :/ ugh. Tylenol does absolutely nothing for me! I wish I had people to help, but everyone else is to busy with their lives to care so I'm stuck doing everything on my own, calling doctors, finding a pediatrician, putting all the baby stuff together, cleaning my room, and the house, doing dishes, laundry, cleaning my bird cage, and whatever else I do daily! that is a lot for one pregnant person who have severe pain and swelling. So do I just not do it or deal with the pain and cause myself to hurt more. I feel stupid complaining because its my fault I'm pregnant and everything, but I look at so many other people and everyone gets help from there husbands, or parents, I don't get any of that!! It would be nice once in a while for family to want to help me, or my bf to come help me clean up and put stuff together, but nope, I'm stuck doing it all myself! I do not want to become so stressed out that it triggers my depression to start, or it gets so bad where something happens to my baby. Im scared of it happening! And now Im putting on all this weight and im scared to see how everything is gonna be after shes here, whats it gonna be like then. I think its hard now but once shes here its gonna be even worst. :/ I cant wait for her to get here, don't get me wrong but I cant do it by myself! I need people around before i loose the only social life I have. I will literally go insane! My bf needs to step up and be a father and a boyfriend and help out! But I cant force him to get off his *** and do so. Just hoping things get better, not ready to be miserable for the rest of my life because I have no one. I don't think thats asking for much!