12 week mark

well i'm at my first milestone that i wanted to achieve which was 12 weeks which i am today
after everything that has happened and having a miscarriage before i wanted to get to 12 weeks
my next milestone is the 18 week u/s i am dreading it but also in a way i'm wanting it to be now
with my last pregnancy i found out at my 18 week u/s that my daughter wasnt growing as she should
and the amnio fluid was very little.i just want to know that everything is fine and my baby is
growing and healthy it terrifies me that something is going to happen and i dont think i could handle it again
going through a funeral for my baby was the worst thing ever and i could never ever do that again.