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Jun 09, 2013 - 2 comments
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Had a fantastic weekend. ON Sat., a most incredible marvelous, indescribable experience occurred. A vision came to me. I wasn't imagining or just thinking it. It just came. I KNOW it was real! First vision ever. Heard about them, didn't believe really, sort of did, but was skeptical. NOW I KNOW THEY ARE REAL! Not drug-induced, either, haha!. Sunday, I had a revelation. Too incredible to write it all here. The main point is I sacrificed something that I've been wanting to get rid of for a long time. I'd kept all the pills that my psych experimented with, on me & that I weaned myself off as they made me more ill. I kept them for some reason, maybe as I was taught to 'waste not, want not', or maybe for 'just in case'. In case of what, I asked myself! There were quite a few, but not enough to do away with myself in case I ever felt suicidal (I used to, especially being on these pills). So, I knew the time had come to gather them & throw them out. I did & felt so free, a burden lifted! I'd even kept 2 old repeat scripts. Turfed them out & all. I even threw the latest ones out from my psych at my appt on 20th May,the Olanzapine, that when I researched it, there was no way I was going to take. Can't wait to tell her on the 17th June. Hopefully I can stop seeing her. Cannot afford it & I know she was just trying to help, but really, how ignorant. She obviously doesn't have time to keep up with the latest research on meds. Anyway, the weaning of valium, & zopiclone is hard some days, but mostly I am doing very well indeed. I am proud of myself! Had none yet & dread the thought I have to take them, or suffer needlessly, prolong the weaning period etc. So, much as I hate them & feel strong enough to not take them at all, I know that is dangerous & could set me back. Damn, damn, damn! Hopefuly by summer, I'll be free of them. YES, I WILL BE! Sooner, if I can get away with it. My faith in God has proved to be an amazing thing! Wonderful, miraculous things are happening to me. Tummy pain healed & the 2 surgeons I've seen,can't explain it. (I still get it when I first sit up in bed when I wake, but that's probably the prolapse. Idk. It goes after prayer, that's all I know!). Waiting for the op to fix that. Have to wait for the hosp to call, to book me in.  My mental attitude is just SO positive. I am being healed in every way. PRAISE BE TO GOD! And THANK YOU, JESUS! I never would have believed it a few months ago. Wish I'd written down the date when I first came back to God, accepted Jesus as my Savior again. Good things are happening at last, after so many years of darkness, illness & bad news. I can't explain it, but FAITH WORKS!

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by EvolverU, Jun 09, 2013
What an amazing story, S. True Faith absolutely does work miracles. I've seen it happen over and over. Your revelation sounds fascinating. As you probably know, these gifts usually come when we 'open our hands' and give something up. When we 'break open our hearts & minds'. (i.e. sacrifice)

Though, I might not believe in exactly the same way you do, the premise and the results are the same wherever true belief & 'right action' are taken! HOORAY for your miracle and stumping the Drs./Surgeons. (Most of them will insist to the end that it was a 'spontaneous remission' or some such -- but not all!) I'm so very happy for you. You've been through years of physical and emotional darkness. I'm glad such light has come into your heart/life!

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by shugalug, Jun 10, 2013
Yes. I'm so glad I wrote it in my journal, to remind me it WAS real! I've got it all recorded in detail elsewhere, so when I start thinking maybe it was just my imagination, or just my thoughts, this written account will remind me so I won't start doubting, or let the devil start lying to me.
Yes, faith in oneself, in miracles do occur when you truly believe, whichever way you choose.
You are right about the surgeons/ doctors too. I was going to mention that I'd been praying, but knew they'd just think I was some kind of nut. Maybe one day. There's just no other explanation. I could not eat solid foods without getting terrible pain. Now I can, and finally building my health back up again.
Thanks again for your comments.

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