An update to all....If you do not like god you do not want to read this!

Well I have fibromyalgia now too!! Let me tell you my story again and why now I am a women of faith and nothing but, yes it will be a shortened version because I am being a lazy bum this morning. Well when my son was sick in the womb I prayed to god to give me his illness and he did I know have a 23 mo old healthy as a horse and I have pseudo. Now knowing that god has done that for me once, and you all remember the term oil during my pregnancy with my daughter, guess who made that prayer once more me, in exchange for my daughters health and guess what happened she is healthy as a horse no heart problems at all, out of the blue no doctor could explain the fluid around her heart did not get any larger, did not cause any damage what so ever and she does not have a heart problem any more but guess who has another illness, mama. God gave me fibro in exchange for my daughters health, two condition, neither one will kill me nor prevent me from caring for my children, but will both be life long as theirs would have been. Every time I get upset about being sick I will hold the child whos illness is being hard on me for the day and I will look at that beautiful baby and no longer be upset but proud that I could take their pain away before it was actual pain and guess what if I could turn back the hands of time I would not change a thing I would do it again and I would do it again for another child. There is nothing I would not do for my children. Including begging god for miricles which may make me ill in the end.

Now as far as how I am doing with these illnesses not bad, I am now on a stronger pain med. Unfortunaly I have to take two close together in the morning to beat my morning headache but it works and last most of the day. I am on ritalin for add and let me tell you I don't know if I am really add and don't really care, the ritalin is doing wonders for my memory I am not forgetting where I am putting things and I now remember the most of my past plus my crippling sleepyness all day has simmered down to a meer yawn. I will be going up to twice a day as I turn into a extremely tired bumbling idiot around 2 pm every single day but besides that my stuff is getting in order. however as far as working, I am unsure if I can pull that off but you best believe I am going to try my best.

The in-laws have moved in now, things are going ok. I have had to breath counting backwords from ten a few times so far but I am on zoloft, I was going to go off of it until I noticed I was getting really upset when my things were getting ruined I was crying and twitching so for now zoloft stay so I can be as calm as mary popins.

now for the baby and children.... baby is doing well she went from 4lbs 9 onces to 8 lbs 1 once in fize weeks and now that she is 7 weeks we have to get her weighed again she gaining wonderfully and mom has lost 28lbs :--))) the other children are doing good as well my six yr old is loving school more than ever, my five year old has become the mother hen of the home and will not leave briannas side for nothing, except the computer. My 3 years old thinks he's boss man now that daddy has taken on a million hours to make up for what mom has been lagging and my 23 month old is still being my little baby man, I have to hold him and bri bri at the same time it like double the lovins for the mama. Well I think I have hit ever note so I will get back with you all later... by the way send me a message and let me know how you all are doing as well I will be able to catch up now, I believe I will be on here close to every morning. ttyl