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Day 11...FREE from tramadol!

Jun 20, 2013 - 0 comments
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So its day 11. Crazy! Things are much the same, which is pretty good! I still have a dip in energy after work, but I can't really relate that to being off tramadol. Like I had said before, I think its still tricky to distinguish what is from that vs what is just life. I'm sure everyone gets dips of energy... during different parts of the day. That's why some people are morning people and some are night owls. And, you know, I think that regardless of if its related to coming off of tramadol or not... we can't blame EVERYTHING that happens on coming off the drug. If we do that then I think we set an unrealistic expectation of what "normal pill (substance) free life" should be. Hopefully that makes sense. :)

I've also had a little anxiety lately. I'm dealing with alot with my husband right now (you can see my other post in "living with an addict" for more of the story). The biggest thing is that I know I can't let him bring me down regardless. I just have to figure out the best way to handle him. How much am I "there" for him? How much do I put up with? When do I just say thats enough? His moods are so widely spread its hard to tell if I'll walk in the door to a supportive, energetic, seemingly sweet husband or someone who won't get off the couch and is lazy and unmotivated. All that is just a WHOLE different can of worms!

So, the biggest difference I'm feeling today is that this morning I actually forgot to take my vitamins that I had been taking each day. I had started 5HPT after 48 hours off of tramadol (the whole seratonin thing). I didn't know if it was really "helping" me or not, but I took it 2-3 times a day as directed on the bottle. It didn't seem to hurt so I figured I'd take it until the bottle ran out, since I had already purchased it anyways. I have never had a "depression" issue (luckily) so I wasn't taking it for that, but more to help my body start producing what it should have been producing on its own... like a "jumpstart" if you will. Today, I haven't taken it, and I feel down. Not depressed but not my upbeat self. I don't feel good about myself... maybe it's a bad day, hey, everyone had bad days now and again. OR maybe it's because my body isn't necessarily doing what it's supposed to be on its own yet. Like I said, I feel OK.... just not myself. I'll take it when I get home to see how I feel. Again, maybe the 5hpt is helping or maybe it's just an off day for me.... only time will tell.

The last thing I want to do is set an unrealistic expectation for myself.

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