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Not what I needed
Apr 03, 2008 02:19AM
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Last night after convincing myself to go back to work because I just obsessing over TTC here at home.
My girlfriend rings me upset and asks if I can come over....of course being a good friend I went out in the cold rain and drove to her house when I got there she was in the kitchen with a HPT on the bench....You guessed it she had a + HPT and of course the first thing I said is OMG CONGRATULATIONS thats great!!!.
But not for her she did'nt want that result so I sitting there trying to console her thinking life just sucks she does'nt want to be pregnant as is....I am desperate to be pregnant and well....its not looking good!! I hugged her and told her to wait till her due date (in 4 days) and test again then...just in case her period comes anyway.
I drove home for her house bawling my eyes out....knowing if she is pregnant she will be having the baby right when I would be due if I got a + this cycle. I felt completed cheated. Why!!! If there'a a god or angels why would they bless her which is a disater for her and not bless me who wants a child more than anything.
Im so depressed now....And this morning another BFN 14 DPT FET......
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!
My girlfriend rings me upset and asks if I can come over....of course being a good friend I went out in the cold rain and drove to her house when I got there she was in the kitchen with a HPT on the bench....You guessed it she had a + HPT and of course the first thing I said is OMG CONGRATULATIONS thats great!!!.
But not for her she did'nt want that result so I sitting there trying to console her thinking life just sucks she does'nt want to be pregnant as is....I am desperate to be pregnant and well....its not looking good!! I hugged her and told her to wait till her due date (in 4 days) and test again then...just in case her period comes anyway.
I drove home for her house bawling my eyes out....knowing if she is pregnant she will be having the baby right when I would be due if I got a + this cycle. I felt completed cheated. Why!!! If there'a a god or angels why would they bless her which is a disater for her and not bless me who wants a child more than anything.
Im so depressed now....And this morning another BFN 14 DPT FET......
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!
I know what you mean. Life seem's very unfair sometimes. We've been ttc for 5 years and last year my coleague n friend at wk discovered she was pregnant and was devastated, I watched her running to the toilet at wrk to be sick each morning whilst looking well and wishing it was me,she had an abortion and I was the last to know at wrk I told her after I'd never of judged her and she could have talked to me she said she couldnt because she'd seen my puffy eyes each time I'd gone to wrk after af arriving n knew I was trying to hold myself together n she admired me for it.
How long have u been ttc?
I am waiting for af at the moment and dreading her arrival,trying to think positive though as we've got iui/ivf consultation on monday. The very best of luck x Clomidkid
How long have u been ttc?
I am waiting for af at the moment and dreading her arrival,trying to think positive though as we've got iui/ivf consultation on monday. The very best of luck x Clomidkid
TTC for 2.5 years with my current partner and 2 years with my previous partner, with whom I am still friends. He is with a new partner know who can give him children.
My DH is great and sooo supportive I know he will love me whatever the outcome but I would dearly love to give im a child.
This is my second FET and previously had IVF....before that a combo of metformin and clomid for about 12 mths.
My appt is on monday also for my BT but I really am not holding any hope anymore as it is 14DPT and still a BFN on the HPT. Its not like I can even say well AF is not here so theres still hope because on the drugs they give us on an FET cycle i am pretty sure it stops AF coming so I think its unlikely i am pregnant.
I am however sending you all the baby dust I can get my hands on and I am standing outside under the moon blowing it into the wind so it can find its way to you.
My DH is great and sooo supportive I know he will love me whatever the outcome but I would dearly love to give im a child.
This is my second FET and previously had IVF....before that a combo of metformin and clomid for about 12 mths.
My appt is on monday also for my BT but I really am not holding any hope anymore as it is 14DPT and still a BFN on the HPT. Its not like I can even say well AF is not here so theres still hope because on the drugs they give us on an FET cycle i am pretty sure it stops AF coming so I think its unlikely i am pregnant.
I am however sending you all the baby dust I can get my hands on and I am standing outside under the moon blowing it into the wind so it can find its way to you.
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