sealbeachluvr's Profile
Mood:
sealbeachluvr is
Sad
About Me:
Female, 40, Palmdale - CA
Hi, my name is Mary. I came to this site out of desperation. Two years ago, I began to suffer severe anxiety and recently, maybe a year ago, I began to have blurry vision, pain in my ears, dizziness, ringing in my ears and pain throughout my head. My life has not been t...
[More]
Interests:
Previous
|
Next
Feeling sad
Apr 03, 2008 01:12PM
- 2 comments
Feeling scared and sad
Everyday I wake up and the first thing I say is, “God, please don’t let this be here with me today.” Each day it is. How much longer will I feel like this? I regret the day I ever discovered that I suffer with anxiety, something that happened after my husband died and how I ever regret telling my family that I suffer with it. When I am sick, everyone tells me it is all in my head.
Each morning I feel horrible. I feel dizzy, my eyes are blurred, (my eye exam came out great) I feel as though I am driving through a tunnel, that is how plugged my ears feel. My jaw cracks, my teeth hurt, my neck is in pain…
I have gone to the doctor’s over and over and over again…
only to be told I have severe drainage in my ear and post nasal drip. Can post nasal drip really cause all these symptoms? How long will I have to live with this? I feel so depressed and so alone. Once so healthy, now I dread getting up in the morning because I know when I get up, I will not be feeling well. I have to live with this pain because no one believes me that I feel this way.
I go to the doctor’s on Monday and I am going to insist that they send me to a Nose, Throat and Ear specialist. The medicine I was given for the ear problem and nasal drip problem is not helping.
Does anyone out there relate to any of my symptoms? I am scared. Sometimes I wonder if I have a tumor because it is so hard to believe that nasal problems could cause such severe pain, anxiety, etc. It feels like my head it totally clogged up or something.
Everyday I wake up and the first thing I say is, “God, please don’t let this be here with me today.” Each day it is. How much longer will I feel like this? I regret the day I ever discovered that I suffer with anxiety, something that happened after my husband died and how I ever regret telling my family that I suffer with it. When I am sick, everyone tells me it is all in my head.
Each morning I feel horrible. I feel dizzy, my eyes are blurred, (my eye exam came out great) I feel as though I am driving through a tunnel, that is how plugged my ears feel. My jaw cracks, my teeth hurt, my neck is in pain…
I have gone to the doctor’s over and over and over again…
only to be told I have severe drainage in my ear and post nasal drip. Can post nasal drip really cause all these symptoms? How long will I have to live with this? I feel so depressed and so alone. Once so healthy, now I dread getting up in the morning because I know when I get up, I will not be feeling well. I have to live with this pain because no one believes me that I feel this way.
I go to the doctor’s on Monday and I am going to insist that they send me to a Nose, Throat and Ear specialist. The medicine I was given for the ear problem and nasal drip problem is not helping.
Does anyone out there relate to any of my symptoms? I am scared. Sometimes I wonder if I have a tumor because it is so hard to believe that nasal problems could cause such severe pain, anxiety, etc. It feels like my head it totally clogged up or something.
by raquel414, Apr 05, 2008 09:30PM
MARY, your not alone!!! i have had anxiety since 1998, when my son was not even 1yrs. old yet, and my husband abandoned us. broke my heart.i've been batling major depression and anxiety since. i've had good times in my life, but more so now, i am extremelly sensitive, i guess you could say, im a very nervous person, and i cry practically everyday, when i look back on my life, and wonder how i've become so depressed throughout the years.nothing ever seems to go right, nothing could ever turn out the way i hope for...and now my health, mental, and physical, is all i think about i was planning on going to nursing school, and was really looking foward to the future, untill last december.....
the anxiety "panic attacks" i suffer with have become much more intense since this past december, when i was in a car accident, just 4 days before christmas. i was diagnosed w/ post traumatic stress disorder, and i havent been "myself" since. i am very depressed every single day,and have had pharyingitis since febuary of this year. before i go on let me just say, i am terribly sorry for your loss, and the pain you are going through.
i've been through A LOT in my 31yrs. starting w/ my dad dying when i was 7yrs. old., and growing up w/ a single mother of three,
.you wont beleive this, but i too have a doctors appoit. this coming monday, and i too was going to ask him to send me to a ear, nose, and throat specialist !!! i was told back on feb. 12th. of this yr., that i had pharyingitis. i originally went in thinking that i had an ear infection,(in my right ear), because that's how bad the pain was. i wasnt given any antibiotics, or anything for the pain, i was just told to garrgle w/ warm salt water , and to this day, my ear still feels full, i constantly feel/hear a crackling noise when i swallow, and it pops when i talk. my glands are still swollen, and i'm experiancing facial, and jaw pain, that has gotten 10x worse after i just had a wisdom tooth extracted on march 17th., where i developed "dry socket" and was diagnosed w/ tmj....one thing after another always.....(that's a whole other story).i was in such pain, on the 1st,(this past tuesday) i had went to the e.r., where they diagnosed me w/ phayingitis AGAIN!! HOW DOES SOMEONE HAVE PHARYINGITIS FOR ALMOST TWO MONTHS!!! ??? they sent me home w/ a rx for viscous lidocaine, a mothwash that numbs your throat/mouth. it's good for the numbing, but is the consistancy is very thick, and it's like garrgling w/ corn syrup or something..it's pretty gross...
im extremelly fatigued, all the time. i dropped about 25lbs. since the car accident, (FROM BEING DEPRESSED) i slowly got my appetite back about a month ago, but since having my tooth extracted, and in agony from the dry socket, i lost my appetite again i have to force myself to eat, i cant afford to lose much more weight . the dry socket seems to be healing,(i think), but it's also still my ear, throat/glands,that i have pain in. i feel so sick. and yes, my teeth too, it almost feels like i could feel my teeth shifting, my gums have this weird throbbing sensation, especially when i lay my head down .also, when i lay down,i'll turn my head, so that i'm laying on my ear hoping that it'll drain, but never does.i have sinus pressure, and a heightened sense of smell.i used to love candles, and air fresheners, but now they tend to make me feel nauseas,i got so mad at my boyfriend when he sprinkled carpet fresh all over the living room, i couldnt breath!! i gagged!!! i can't explain to anyone how i feel, they just dont get it...so, i feel for you when you say, everyone tells you it's all in your head.......you know your own body, as do i, and i just want to feel better again, where i dont dread waking up, and being sick all the time....all i ever say now, is ,"i don't feel good". so, like i said mary, your not alone...and personally,i wish i could sit down, and have a cup of coffe/tea whatever w/ you right now, because i have no one who understands how i feel...too bad your all the way out in california...i could use a friend right now, sounds like you can too...let me know how your doing....i just used that "mouthwash", and now my ear is popping really bad , feels like i have stream of water constantly running through it.....
the anxiety "panic attacks" i suffer with have become much more intense since this past december, when i was in a car accident, just 4 days before christmas. i was diagnosed w/ post traumatic stress disorder, and i havent been "myself" since. i am very depressed every single day,and have had pharyingitis since febuary of this year. before i go on let me just say, i am terribly sorry for your loss, and the pain you are going through.
i've been through A LOT in my 31yrs. starting w/ my dad dying when i was 7yrs. old., and growing up w/ a single mother of three,
.you wont beleive this, but i too have a doctors appoit. this coming monday, and i too was going to ask him to send me to a ear, nose, and throat specialist !!! i was told back on feb. 12th. of this yr., that i had pharyingitis. i originally went in thinking that i had an ear infection,(in my right ear), because that's how bad the pain was. i wasnt given any antibiotics, or anything for the pain, i was just told to garrgle w/ warm salt water , and to this day, my ear still feels full, i constantly feel/hear a crackling noise when i swallow, and it pops when i talk. my glands are still swollen, and i'm experiancing facial, and jaw pain, that has gotten 10x worse after i just had a wisdom tooth extracted on march 17th., where i developed "dry socket" and was diagnosed w/ tmj....one thing after another always.....(that's a whole other story).i was in such pain, on the 1st,(this past tuesday) i had went to the e.r., where they diagnosed me w/ phayingitis AGAIN!! HOW DOES SOMEONE HAVE PHARYINGITIS FOR ALMOST TWO MONTHS!!! ??? they sent me home w/ a rx for viscous lidocaine, a mothwash that numbs your throat/mouth. it's good for the numbing, but is the consistancy is very thick, and it's like garrgling w/ corn syrup or something..it's pretty gross...
im extremelly fatigued, all the time. i dropped about 25lbs. since the car accident, (FROM BEING DEPRESSED) i slowly got my appetite back about a month ago, but since having my tooth extracted, and in agony from the dry socket, i lost my appetite again i have to force myself to eat, i cant afford to lose much more weight . the dry socket seems to be healing,(i think), but it's also still my ear, throat/glands,that i have pain in. i feel so sick. and yes, my teeth too, it almost feels like i could feel my teeth shifting, my gums have this weird throbbing sensation, especially when i lay my head down .also, when i lay down,i'll turn my head, so that i'm laying on my ear hoping that it'll drain, but never does.i have sinus pressure, and a heightened sense of smell.i used to love candles, and air fresheners, but now they tend to make me feel nauseas,i got so mad at my boyfriend when he sprinkled carpet fresh all over the living room, i couldnt breath!! i gagged!!! i can't explain to anyone how i feel, they just dont get it...so, i feel for you when you say, everyone tells you it's all in your head.......you know your own body, as do i, and i just want to feel better again, where i dont dread waking up, and being sick all the time....all i ever say now, is ,"i don't feel good". so, like i said mary, your not alone...and personally,i wish i could sit down, and have a cup of coffe/tea whatever w/ you right now, because i have no one who understands how i feel...too bad your all the way out in california...i could use a friend right now, sounds like you can too...let me know how your doing....i just used that "mouthwash", and now my ear is popping really bad , feels like i have stream of water constantly running through it.....
by raquel414, Apr 09, 2008 06:33PM
hi mary,
im glad to hear your doc. appoit. went okay...i also wish you the best of luck on your x-rays.....i hope the nasal spray they gave you provides some relief !!! thank you for the compliment on my pic....like i said though, that was months before the car accident, im much thinner now, 25lbs thinner, and i feel like ****!!! i just came back from my doc. appoit. today, and found out i lost ANOTHER 5LBS.!!!! i have to go back tomorrow to have some more blood work done....im scared.
i told the doc. everything that's happened since the car accident. and how i have no appetite. i have to force myself to eat. for my swollen glands he gave me a rx for an antibiotic, and a steroid thats like prednisone...he said i deff. have inflamation on the right side of my neck, but doesnt know from what? i told him how i had my tooth pulled, and all that....
im glad you havent experianced any anxiety for a couple of days now.....i wish i could say the same for myself...i've been very depressed.....im really worried about my health. i dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont use illlegal drugs...what the heck is wrong w/ me? if this is all from the anxiety/post traumatic stress, then i agree, they should have given it a bigger name.....
how are you doing? is the nasal spray working? by the way, your a very pretty lady too....your right, it is nice to put a face w/ the person your talking to.....
im glad to hear your doc. appoit. went okay...i also wish you the best of luck on your x-rays.....i hope the nasal spray they gave you provides some relief !!! thank you for the compliment on my pic....like i said though, that was months before the car accident, im much thinner now, 25lbs thinner, and i feel like ****!!! i just came back from my doc. appoit. today, and found out i lost ANOTHER 5LBS.!!!! i have to go back tomorrow to have some more blood work done....im scared.
i told the doc. everything that's happened since the car accident. and how i have no appetite. i have to force myself to eat. for my swollen glands he gave me a rx for an antibiotic, and a steroid thats like prednisone...he said i deff. have inflamation on the right side of my neck, but doesnt know from what? i told him how i had my tooth pulled, and all that....
im glad you havent experianced any anxiety for a couple of days now.....i wish i could say the same for myself...i've been very depressed.....im really worried about my health. i dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont use illlegal drugs...what the heck is wrong w/ me? if this is all from the anxiety/post traumatic stress, then i agree, they should have given it a bigger name.....
how are you doing? is the nasal spray working? by the way, your a very pretty lady too....your right, it is nice to put a face w/ the person your talking to.....
Post a Comment