Thank you all !!!

I finally lost it and called the Mental Health and told them I was coming to kill myself THERE not sit at home and do it all alone. I had enough !!! I was furious to say the least. I got a bit of a run around THEN the Angels of Heaven come down to help !!! Today I went in thinking they were going to lock me up (they would of had a fight on their hands for sure) !! NO they actually after 3 years of trying to change Therapist started my process all over and I got to see one that had had her own clinic. She has training and experience with my condition and she knew I was at my end. The crisis manager got involved and they had all their act together by the time I was done with my session and my re registration 2 hours total...OMG...I feel like there is hope again. Praise Jesus !! Thank you all for your concern and notes to me. I actually am having a little bit of tingles in my stomach (good) which I normally do not give a **** about anything. I am going to therapy 1 or 2 a week plus she already has me set up for group therapy to help me manage and control  each episode. She has 2 more appointments scheduled with her and also I am not going to have to wait 2 or 3 months to see the Doctor for meds. I will see him (the one she recommends) only in less than 2 weeks. That even she was surprised at. She also told me that she was putting me on the 100 % discount so I would have only a few dollars to pay. Even with that she said even if I could not pay..I was to come anyway!! How wonderful...God is so great!!! THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SAM