Trying to smile
Apr 04, 2008 09:37AM
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I thought this cycle just might have been 'the one', but af arrived yesterday. I miss that excited,special kind of feeling that you sometimes get before af is due when u wonder if you may be pregnant and you know something that everyone around you doesn't know, I daydream all the time,it consumes me,seeing a bfp going through the excitement and emotions,imagining tears of joy,planning a special way to tell my wonderful fiance,imaging his face,knowing that this challenge and quest you've both been trying to manage has come to an end and you feel special and excited to have a secret and trying to believe it's real and your having a baby together. I feel depressed today and I can't bring myself out of it. We'd accepted a dinner invitation tonight and I feel so much like cancelling but I can't because we dont see his sister and husband that often and I love our niece but it's so hard talking about her over dinner and even though I know I'm not I feel like a failure. The clomid makes my emotional state worse and it's round 8 starting tomorrow!
I have thought many times about changing my job in child care but I love it and have never done anything else,but I see pregnant mums all the time.
Sorry to sound down :[!!!!! clomidkid x x x
I have thought many times about changing my job in child care but I love it and have never done anything else,but I see pregnant mums all the time.
Sorry to sound down :[!!!!! clomidkid x x x
I know how u feel but in my case I am afraid not to get my period. I have had 2 m/c in the last six months. I have a 4 year old daughter that doesn't know that I lost the baby yet. Everyday she talks about it and I just can't tell her. Even my 8 year son is asking if I need his help thinking of names.
Hi. You're going through a lot,hope your doing ok x
Children are so inquisitive,I'd be the same,it's hard to know what to say. I've seen a programme about keeping children informed,they say it's best to be honest with them and let them deal with their emotions so they can move on,they used pictures to explain their feelings and puppets and writing feeling cards then posting them away to feel better,whether it would work I don't know. If you need to chat you know where I am. Sometimes I don't know where we get the strength to deal with life's ups and downs. My mum had a late m/c when she was in labour,her baby died,a little girl,she had spina bifida and would have been my 48yr old big sis,mum talks about it every now and then and I admire her so much for her courage,she was only 19 at the time and she had a nervous breakdown and she nearly split up with first husband as they couldn't talk about it together. We've been ttc for 5yrs,we have unexplained infertility,my mums fertility was an issue when she was younger but it was never investigated,she had my brother at 17,fell pregnant at 19 and then tried for another baby and never conceived,at 41 when her periods became erratic and she was told she was going through the menopause early she discovered she was 3mths pregnant with me after 22 years. Clomidkid x
Children are so inquisitive,I'd be the same,it's hard to know what to say. I've seen a programme about keeping children informed,they say it's best to be honest with them and let them deal with their emotions so they can move on,they used pictures to explain their feelings and puppets and writing feeling cards then posting them away to feel better,whether it would work I don't know. If you need to chat you know where I am. Sometimes I don't know where we get the strength to deal with life's ups and downs. My mum had a late m/c when she was in labour,her baby died,a little girl,she had spina bifida and would have been my 48yr old big sis,mum talks about it every now and then and I admire her so much for her courage,she was only 19 at the time and she had a nervous breakdown and she nearly split up with first husband as they couldn't talk about it together. We've been ttc for 5yrs,we have unexplained infertility,my mums fertility was an issue when she was younger but it was never investigated,she had my brother at 17,fell pregnant at 19 and then tried for another baby and never conceived,at 41 when her periods became erratic and she was told she was going through the menopause early she discovered she was 3mths pregnant with me after 22 years. Clomidkid x
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