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Crying all morning 16 DPT 2 days till BT
Apr 04, 2008 08:09PM
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This morning I didn't wake up at 4.30am as I have been since about 3 days after my FET. I slept in until 8.30am, when I went to get out of bed my back and neck locked up, I don't usually suffer for back or neck pain but its so bad I dont think I will be driving today because I can't turn my head to look out the blind spot.
I still managed to do another HPT though and it still managed to be negative.
I have finally given up hope, I know I have my BT in two days...but seriously a negative at 16DPT its not going to be a + BT. As for AF not being here...its not very comforting when you know the progesterone pessaries and oestregen tablets are the only thing keeping her at bay.
When I started this journey almost 3 years ago I wasn't sure I truely wanted a baby....I had previously tried desperately for about 3 years and after having no luck and then the relationship ending I decided I didn't want anymore children and I would just concentrate on being happy....I now know I was just trying to protect myself from the feelings I am having now. But after starting a new relationship my current DH really wanted children so I told him I would try my best, my heart really wasn't in it at first.
Now I am sitting here completely devestated that this was our last chance and it hasn't worked. Last week after the transfer I was completely convinced I was pregnant and with twins even....I was sooo sure....I almost bought 2 matching cots (cribs) of ebay!! But now yes I still have sore BB and spotting and gassy....my smell is heightened....but BFN. I cruel joke if you ask me. This FET just seemed so different to the other times. I was sure this was it.
I guess we could go back to trying naturally (HAHA) considering I don't ovulate of my own its highly unlikely.
I wish I could go back to convincing myself that I don't want a child. But I can't I know its a lie.
I still managed to do another HPT though and it still managed to be negative.
I have finally given up hope, I know I have my BT in two days...but seriously a negative at 16DPT its not going to be a + BT. As for AF not being here...its not very comforting when you know the progesterone pessaries and oestregen tablets are the only thing keeping her at bay.
When I started this journey almost 3 years ago I wasn't sure I truely wanted a baby....I had previously tried desperately for about 3 years and after having no luck and then the relationship ending I decided I didn't want anymore children and I would just concentrate on being happy....I now know I was just trying to protect myself from the feelings I am having now. But after starting a new relationship my current DH really wanted children so I told him I would try my best, my heart really wasn't in it at first.
Now I am sitting here completely devestated that this was our last chance and it hasn't worked. Last week after the transfer I was completely convinced I was pregnant and with twins even....I was sooo sure....I almost bought 2 matching cots (cribs) of ebay!! But now yes I still have sore BB and spotting and gassy....my smell is heightened....but BFN. I cruel joke if you ask me. This FET just seemed so different to the other times. I was sure this was it.
I guess we could go back to trying naturally (HAHA) considering I don't ovulate of my own its highly unlikely.
I wish I could go back to convincing myself that I don't want a child. But I can't I know its a lie.
I am hoping for a miracle for you in 2 days. I hope it's a BFP!
Ttc is so very stressful. My heart goes out to you.
Ttc is so very stressful. My heart goes out to you.
Hi I just wanted to give you some words of encouragement. My cousin who got married at 19 started trying for a baby right away and nothing happened. 3 years later she was diagnosed with endometriosis(spelling?) but she kept on trying and again nothing. Her husband was tested and they found out that he had a really low sperm count. So they tried IVF 4 times and nothing. So they gave up hope and quit trying. In Sept of 07 she went to the doctor with cramps and she thougt her endometriosis was back, she also told the doctor that her breast were hurting, her doc said lets do a pregnancy test just in case well my cousin was like I think something is really wrong with me and I cant possibly be pregnant because we have been trying for 10 years and nothing has happened. Well sure enough she was pregnant:) She was totally shocked by the news but her little boy is due in May:) Miracles happen everyday:) Just have faith, God really does answer prayers!!
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