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Jul 28, 2013 - 4 comments
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Hahahahaha! Happily, joyfully walking in LOVE! Learning so much. Been wondering why I've been having some anxiety, getting worse. Thick as a brick sometimes! I advise others & forget to apply it to myself. Anyway, God always comes through! Received an email yesterday about green tea. I've been having it twice a day with normal tea, only thinking of the health benefits side, how L-Theanine in it, helps GABA production, which produces good feelings of joy, calmness, etc, but forgetting that the caffeine in it negates that. Mixing it with normal tea made it even more caffeine I was having. Then soon after I was having coffee with a pkt cappucino mixed with it. I only started doing the double dose coffee about 2 or so weeks ago, (that's when the anxiety started being bad again). Thought it was still part of withdrawals, but really, even thought that they can't go on that long, surely... Anyway, My hubby had started preparing it with just normal coffee. As I didn't want to offend him, as that was very thoughtful of him, to have it ready for me when I got up in the morn, & I didn't want to waste it, I began adding the special cuppacino that I like, but used to only have 1 or the other, not thinking about the extra caffeine. No wonder that within an hour of getting up, I was shaky, jittery, 'fright' feelings in tummy again. I prayed & prayed about it, then thought that God has His reasons, (a lesson), so knew it must pass & just accepted it, as I was still joyful. The last 3 days tho, this anxiety had started getting me down, & that scared me. It was horrible. Anyway, when I saw the email that said "what exactly is green tea"? I thought, oh, I think I know what it's going to say", but something prompted me (God!) to click on it. Well, my eyes were opened when I read about the caffeine & how it can cause anxiety, (Der, really!) That's where I could've kicked myself, for not connecting it to my anxiety, esp when I've advised hubby,& kids, when they've had a bit of shakeiness. Haha!. It told how to safely remove the caffeine & keep the amino acid L-Theanine, which is to pour hot water on it, soak for 45 secs, dump that water & pour more hot water over it. Still keeps it's flavour too. And that the decaf one isn't much good, as even tho it removes caffeine, it also removes the amino acid. So, something so simple as that, but what a great lesson! I thanked God of course, as it might have taken a long time before it occurred to me, that too much caffeine was the culprit! I'd even started having the green & normal tea at 4.30 about 2 weeks or so ago. Wondered why I was feeling anxious in the evening, when I never used to feel it then. For some reason, I was usually not too bad evening time. I'm not putting myself down, as I know I'm intelligent, but I can be such a dill at times. Slow as wet week! As my sister says, we can be our own worst enemies sometimes! Haha! So happy & CALM today! Trusting God is truly amazing indeed! I never stopped trusting Him. How I wish others could seek Jesus, so they can experience this, such wonder, peace & joy, such love! I never would've believed it a few months ago, would've backed off. Even tho I always believed in God, I never knew anything like what I'm learning now, listening to Joyce's teachings on HOW to use the tools we've all naturally got, deep down, but just don't know it.

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by clean_in_ks, Jul 27, 2013
So GREAT to read this!!  You sound better everytime you write!  

Glad you made the "connection"...and your anxiety has lessened.  Just in case you didn't know, L-Theanine comes in capsule form, too.  I take it myself.  

Slow as a wet week.....haha...that's a new one for me....I shall remember it!

Bless you girl.....keep on seekin....keep on believin.....He is SO faithful~
Hugs,
Connie

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by shugalug, Jul 28, 2013
Aw, thanks again, Connie!  Hope all is well with you too. That 'slow as a wet week' saying is something I remember from childhood. Don't know where it came from.. Glad it gave you a chuckle.
I thought about what you said last time, about joining the forum. Will do that, when I feel the time is right. Still in the process of getting my bowel probs seen to, still recovering from the flu  a nasty one, I'm not the only person suffering from this particular virus. It's even been on the news here, & I am involved in helping my family atm, plus a very good friend with encouragement, friendly advice, hope etc.. A big job in itself.  Realizing I must be in tiptop condition myself, mentally & physically, too, before venturing further. I'm right back into eating right etc., trying to build up my health. I would really love to be of help to others who are struggling, tho.  What I'm learning now, will enable me to do this more effectively, in time. If that's what God is leading me to, I will obey, of course.  You're right - He is SO faithful. How could I ever doubt? I only have to look back at what He's done for me. Miraculous!
God bless you too. And hugs back to you.
Christine

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by ROSYouralright, Sep 10, 2013
I really enjoyed reading this journal post!! LOVED slow as a wet week!! I've never heard that before!! Learn something new everyday. God is so faithful and always answers us in one way or another. I'm glad u got to the root of things & thanks again for sharing this wonderful post!! May God continually Bless you in abundance! Always, Rosy

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by shugalug, Sep 10, 2013
Thanks Rosy! Yes, God does give us answers, sometimes sooner, sometimes later.  Even though we usually have to go through some trials before receiving answers, if we keep trusting God & don't give up on Him when the going gets rough, we learn something. Sometimes our suffering is needless, as He gives us many 'prompts', an 'inner knowing', about some decision we have to make or how to handle a situation. If we heed that 'prompt' instead of doing something we usually will regret, we could save ourselves a lot of heartache.
Thanks again Rosy,
Be blessed!
Christine
















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