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huh...conversion disorder / hysterical neurosis

Apr 25, 2009 - 0 comments
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well, my pcp called me the other day.  She said after getting all my hospital results, mri's ct's, etc etc she believes i have conversion disorder/hysterical neurosis.  The symptoms i have are VERY real, from what i read on it, of course not much to find really.  It is because of truama.  well, i can put that trauma to the emotional, verbal abuse i go thru with my husband sometimes.  It comes and goes, the abuse.  But the reason all the problems with my walking, speach, seizures, and such showed up now?  because i moved to be with him (giving him a second chance) in the last year.  I have been pretty much isolated.  Not really allowed to have friends because he says i am not allowed to talk to my friends about him, my family all lives far away.  only his family lives here.  It started off with my injuries from work, then they really started to change, of course i had the physical pain in my back and neck, but oh about 5 mnths ago i started having problems walking at first, having to use a cane, then walker, then my speach was very difficult, my memmory and all followed.  I am not allowed to have an opinion.  Everything in the house has to be the way he wants it.  Kind of like living with a very **** poor parent ya know.  When he has "episodes " as he calls them i am put down so badly that he treats the toilet paper he wipes his but with better than me.once my pcp told me about this disorder i read on it quickly before my appt with my psyciatrist it so clicked.  It made so much sense.  I can see when certain problems started.  and what was going on here then.  I couldnt say much to my psyc because he was in the room (i have to use a wheelchair when i am out and he pushes me).  I have an appt with my therapist next week.
well, he and i talked about it, i had found out that he was talking to his ex fiance who lives in the area also, looking at porn again (him) and found condoms ...will go into all that later.
anywho we decided i am not going to get any bettter if we live together.  Ok ya thats true.  it was a mutual decision.  problems i cant drive, i have double vision alot of the time, i can afford the appt by myself.  he is the one with the income right now pretty much.  i am screwed....go figure...control it is all about him controlling...does anyone know anyone who had this conversion disorder?  i just want to work my *** of to get my life back!

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