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feeling like I'm the one who caused it.

Aug 01, 2013 - 4 comments
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hurt feelings

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Hirschsprung's Disease

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Hypothyroidism

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Anxiety

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Pregnancy

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Pain

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Baby

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Today I got what you could say "was a hard kick in the balls". I found out my thyroid is low and probably has been since last year.  That aha moment hit as soon as the nurse said them words. If the doctors would have tested me last year, my LO Desha would not have went through all the pain and suffering that she has been feeling since she was born. 1. The explanation on why I miscarried with the baby right before. 2. Their is an association between hieschsprungs disease and hypothyroidism during pregnancy. 3. The headaches 4. Loss of memory (short, fuzzy thinking)5. acting without knowing 6. Anxiety. I feel horrible that when they asked I said I never tested positive , so they never checked. I feel like a bad mom I could have prevented so much. I love my LO and would have done everything to protect her if I had the knowledge.

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by KTowne, Aug 01, 2013
i have hypothyroidism.. i found out after my first pregnancy. it really is a hard disease to diagnose because the symptoms are so easy to brush off as other things. this isn't your fault, and you now have all the knowledge you need to get better.. its a fairly easy thing to deal with.. some medicine daily to keep regular. don't be down mama! just feeling the way you do proves youre a good mother!

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by PurpleLush07, Aug 01, 2013
Thank u I've been bawling my eyes out all day.

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by KTowne, Aug 01, 2013
its odd to me though that didn't come up in routine blood work for either of your pregnancies.. that's routine here. it can actually be set on by pregnancy so it's usually checked. that's how i found out my first pregnancy. i would be asking your OB why it wasn't tested. Desha is so beautiful too.. nothing to feel bad about there! :)

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by PurpleLush07, Aug 02, 2013
Thank u and I have no idea why they didn't they did for my pregnancy with mer had bloodtest and urine tests every appt.I have an appt with them as well monday I want answers even though it won't change the out come

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