That's how hot it is outside right now. It's freaking blazing. I hate hot weather. I hated it so much when I was in NC. It literally felt like the atmosphere was crushing me into the ground. Here in PA, the humidity is different. It's not as thick, but it can be muggy. When it's hot - it's just hot. NC hot is like being holed up in a pottery heating chamber. I am actually thinking about breaking out the AC (stupid window ones). One good thing is that it's B-U-T-ful. I was going to clean my jewelry outside, but any part of my body that touches another body part ... or skin on skin contact, it's like glue. It's gross.
I've opened up the blinds as usual - trying to life up my mood. I'm not so lonely as I had been, but I'm still feeling pretty sh!tty. It really blows when it's nice outside and you just can't get out. It's like looking at a snow globe. It's cute and you want in, but you just can't make it. Obviously walking outside is much easier than shrinking yourself into a snow globe or making a big one to live in.
Nico's hair cut has uplifted her mood. She's been following me around everywhere and she's more active. I think it's because all the fur made her hot. She still looks stupid, though. They didn't do a very good job and I'm not in the mood to try and fix it myself. She runs when I brush her. She's a good dog, though.
Last night I finally finished my coasters and the $4 table. It's awesome. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with my kitchen table. I'm surprise the cats haven't torn it up, especially since it's just paper wrapping paper that I flipped over to make it plain. My plan was to do the same thing as I did in the living room - lay down wall paper to cover the ugly and maybe doodle on it then put self adhesive shelf liners or clear wrapping paper over it to protect it. I'm pleased that some of my creativity has come back. It takes a while to get the stuff down - you know, goal oriented, but not accomplishing much. But in the end, it's totally worth it because I like being crafty. I like being thrifty and creative and use alternative methods. This is my independence ... some of it at least. I even re-did my bathroom.
I keep thinking about changing my bedroom, but honestly I'm not in it much anymore. I can't lay in a bed and fall asleep comfortably. I either sleep on the floor or an uncomfortable chair, like in the car or something. I don't know why. I have a mattress on the floor of my room, but I end up rolling onto the floor because I find it easier to sleep. Since I moved my recliner up to my apartment, I always sleep on that. If I try to sleep in my bed, I have to have large amounts of pillows and blankets surrounding me. Even though I'm generally claustrophobic, I find comfort in being "tucked in". Perhaps this is a childhood thing?
I don't like laying next to people. Abby and I used to kick the **** out of each other on vacation if we had to share the bed. We had "scissor legs". I don't thrash as much anymore. I usually stay stationary. I like to have the TV on so I don't feel so lonely, but if someone is there, I can't sleep if they make any noise. It's strange. I like to take naps on someone's chest or whatever, but it doesn't last long.
The only time I like laying next to something is my cat and sometimes my dog. Echo has a habit of sleeping on my hip when I'm on my side. She also likes sleeping on my lap when I'm on the computer or the toilet. Nico lays with me until I stop petting her or if she gets scared, then she jumps ON TOP of me. She is the worst guard dog ever. Ed ... she's sniffed at me when she thinks I'm asleep. She even laid on my legs for a little bit. She's not totally bad ... and her curiosity is a good thing (some times). It shows that she isn't terribly afraid of me and that she has interest. I just wish she wasn't so persistent.
"Curiosity killed the cat". Oh ... and they're so needy. They're independent but they always want to be the center of attention. You know, if you have a cat, they lay on top of whatever you're doing and roll around. It's cute but annoying. If Nico wasn't so fat, I'm sure she would try that, too. Usually if I call her over and someone else is there, she'll avoid me because she always thinks she's in trouble. She's been good lately.
I'm just talking about nothing. I don't want to lay down anymore because I'm tired and I don't want to oversleep. All of a sudden, Ed and Nico lay on my bed. Iono why. I think I'm hungry.