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Apr 26, 2009 - 6 comments
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I've come to terms on somethings finally. One of them being that I'm not meant to 'get better' or ever be happy. I'm not meant for love, I'm not meant for anything much, really. An early death probably. But owtherwise, nothing much.

I know I am on an edge right now, but I just need some space and some time alone.

As crazy as it sounds, its true. I just need my space and my time alone to work things out with myself and get my head right. Please, do not worry or fret; I'll be sure to keep myself from taking pills (such as diet pills or my mom's prescriptions) Yet, in the meantime, I just need some space and no one worrying. I don't like it when people worry or stress over me, thus the reason why I never I told anyone anything about my problems till I got this account.

So, please, do not worry. Please do not strees or fret over something as meangingless as this situation. I'll pull myself out of it somehow. Or someday in the near future. Anyways, that is all I wanted you people to know.

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by Idilijai, Apr 26, 2009
If you're still hanging around the forum, I would love to chat with you. Sounds like you need to bounce some thoughts around and sort things out. I'll check back later to see if you're here.

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by tom52, Apr 26, 2009
Hey there,

I feel the same way sometimes.  Please know that I am thinking about you and hoping that you will clear the cobwebs soon!

Ping me back if you feel like chatting!

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by ILADVOCATE, Apr 26, 2009
Everyone deserves their personal space and its understandable but its good to focus on relaxation or positive ideas. Even just taking a break and enjoying life. You are meant to get better and be able to enjoy life. And you aren't meant for an early death. Please don't take the time to yourself to focus on reflecting the negativity and hatred people have given you in life. If things continue to get worse you might want to go as an (outpatient) to a local mental health clinic. But regardless find something enjoyable and positive to do in life. Even if its seeing a movie or concert or just hanging out with friends or anything like that. There are other people here closer to your age who could share your experience better but I have had a lot of hatred and negativity directed my way because of who I was and my disability my whole life and I stood back against it and I said I had the right to be here and enjoy life and I would never accept the viewpoints of people who told me otherwise. Find someone you trust to talk to about that.

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by even26, Apr 26, 2009
As you can see from the comments, you're not alone! Please understand that it's a sign of strength to consult with a therapist about such feelings. Make sure you have what to live for. Best of luck from one who has been there.

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by handmaiden468, Apr 27, 2009
We all care.  

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by jewel88, Apr 27, 2009
its normal to feel this way at times, I have bipolar and as Iladvocate said there can be a lot of negativity from others- they don't really understand what it is to walk a day in our shoes. You deserve to be happy, forget what other people say or do. I used to feel the same many times, the best thing is to surround yourself with people who are positive and non-judgemental.

Good luck, hope you will feel an improvement soon.

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