Day 84

We all have our crosses to bear, and sometimes I feel like a jacka$$ for bit**ing about mine, but I'm trying to remember that it isn't enough to just appreciate the great stuff in your life and share that with others, but to also ask for help when I need it for the not so great stuff.  

Although the "p" word has been a huge source of frustration and fatigue lately, I am happy, livin' large, smiling, and lookin' forward to some awesome things this week.  I had a blast today on the boat fishing today, and although didn't catch the intended target, did catch a bait fish.  That has to count for something, and it did.  I had not been out on the river fishing with my family since somewhere in '04 because I was bed-ridden until November of 2007.  I looked forward to the day I knew I'd be out there again, and it did not disappoint.  The morning rain gave way to a beautiful day, with the sun shining, the wind was in my hair, I had my tunes of course, and the company was a trip.  My family and I have a fun time whenever and wherever we are, and it certainly helps distract one from that awful, you know, "p" word.  I even had fun and giggled during the gag fest I had with tears pouring out of my eyes after I entered the port-a-pottie at one of the boat ramps we were at today; the kids and hubby were in the background makin' extra gagging sounds and laughing at my reaction to the lovely scene, and I could not help but to laugh back.  Besides, I got the eldest kid back later over pizza, when I started talking about brain anatomy because she loses it over anything relating to the body.  It's early in the season for the striped bass in the Delaware, so I know in the on-coming weeks I'll be yelling, "Fish on!", soon enough.