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Sep 12, 2013 - 21 comments

Today I had a revelation!!!!  It's time for me to JUMP!!!!!!  So here we go again!!!  Last dose was at 6 am this morn and threw my stash away at lunch!!  

Only thing is hubby is still tapering.   So prob the next few months it will be In my house and he will be taking it.   That's the biggest problem.  The temptation will be here.   So prayers are needed and appreciated.    God will GeT me through.   HE is my strength in my times of trouble.  He will help me all the way through.  I honestly feel very hopeful.   Don't think it will be easy to resist while its here.   But once he's off it will be Much easier.  

Thank u God and thank u all my mh friends.    I need u guys most right now!!!!  

Love Chris!!!!!!!

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by starshine7, Sep 12, 2013
Chris; you did this sucessfully when I first came here in Feb, so I know you can do it again! You have sooo much strength...Remember it doesn't matter what a friend/ relative does..your doing if for YOU...the best gift you can give yourself girl!! I believe in you... xxooooo

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by VICourageous, Sep 12, 2013
I am here even in my times of troubles. I am so blessed to hear this. I think at such a low dose and the Health you are in you will be just fine..Sending a BIG HUG Your way as Always.lol

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by toothfairie, Sep 12, 2013
Girl, you know i got your back!!  and i'm here for you if it gets tough....you CAN do this...yes it will be hard because it's around, but hopefully he will keep the taper up and finish soon!  I'll be praying girl!  Stay strong and you will get thru it!!  

love you!


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by SmilingBright, Sep 12, 2013
Aww you girls are just awesome!!!  I was hoping j would still have your support!!!!  It's a BIG step for me.   But it's TIME!!  I'm ready to really be happy!!!  I want His peace and joy again.  Love u ladies.  Thanks!!!!  I will be posting obnoxiously ev day again. Lol.  Be patient w me.  Ha

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by ActingBrandNew, Sep 12, 2013
You got this Chris...here's a toast to your future success! (A virtual toast of a non-alcoholic beverage of course)

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by ricart70, Sep 12, 2013
Great !!!!!!      and very impressive throwing that stuff away !!  I have never thrown a drug away in my life (intentionally anyway)   lol    You can do this  !!  we are proud of you ;)

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by SmilingBright, Sep 12, 2013
You guys truly make me feel special.  Thank you!!!!    I'm like the prodigal (son) daughter.  I'm
Back baybayy!!!!!  Thank you Jesus.  Enough is enough!!!!!  Time to get my life back Yesterday!!! Love you guys.  

Yeah Rick, I've thrown away plenty of pills long ago when I was struggling w my adderall script.  Ev month I would binge then throw the rest away.  Lol. Thank god I'm not on that crazy drug.  Boy that made me a looney toon!!  But god called me out of that drug and I would never touch it again.  He's calling me away from this one too.  I know that I know I will be more than ok w out it!!!!!  

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by ROSYouralright, Sep 12, 2013
Hey! I'm proud of you! Your going to do great! I'm here if you ever need to talk.... One,choice at a time my friend! You are in my prayers!!

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by SmilingBright, Sep 12, 2013
Ha.  Just passed another test.  Didn't realize I still had 2.5 mg on my dresser.  Saw it just now and flushed it Down the toilet!!  
Ya know what's funny??? My hubby would freak Out if he knew I was throwing my stash all away and not giving it to him to finish his taper on!!  

Heck no!!  He has plenty to taper with.  Doesn't need more to prolong his taper.  And besides it was empowering to throw that garbage away!! I never got to do that last time!!!!   It's like I had some power over it.  

Earlier while working w my patient.  I excused myself when I had the urge  to throw my whole stash away at work. I HAD to get up right at that moment.   Bf I changed my mind and perhaps got weak again or something.  I was scared if I  didn't get rid of it fast then who knows.   But I ran straight to the bathroom and swoosh!!!!!  Lol.  It was amazing feeling!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh.

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by SmilingBright, Sep 12, 2013
Thanks rosy.  I've seen you around.  I truly appreciate the support.  As we all know we all nĂ©ed the extra push.   I love my mh buddies!!!!!  

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by toothfairie, Sep 12, 2013
Girl, i am SO proud of you for flushing!!  i did the same thing!!  it feels sooooo good to do that!!  it is very empowering!!  You know i love you and will always be here for you!!  ALWAYS!!  I'm so friggin proud of you Chris!!  

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by SmilingBright, Sep 12, 2013
Aww toothy you have been w me through these last few months even though I was not being a good girl. U still loved me and knew I would come around.  Thank u for that!!   I BACK!!!   And READY to be happy again     A real happiness and Peace!!!!  Love u too toothy

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by luvabugga, Sep 12, 2013
Excellent choice and job on ditching the stash!  It's your time!  You can do it...and will do it!!!

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by selfinduced, Sep 13, 2013
Oh Smiling, I'm so darn happy to hear this. PLEASE make sure your hubby guards his pills and doesn't cave to you when your hurting. You sound very determined and I KNOW you want this. Sending double prayers for strength and care to you for the next few days. xo

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by SmilingBright, Sep 13, 2013
Thanks luvabugga!!  It is my time!!!  

Selfinduced-- yes that will be my hardest challenge.   But will be praying for Gods strength and remind myself why I'm doing this.   BC I'm worth it!!!!!!!

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by ActingBrandNew, Sep 13, 2013
Philippians 1:6

"And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns."


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by SmilingBright, Sep 13, 2013
Oh E!!!!!  I love it.   Writing that one down.   Good one!!!  I need to write a whole bunch down and keep them on me at all times!!!  That's my weapon!!!!!!!

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by Wildewoman, Sep 13, 2013
You are so strong!! Go Girl!!

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by SmilingBright, Sep 13, 2013
When I am weak that's when He is made strong. This time He will be my strength!!!  I'm doing it right this time!!!  

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by kaye1989, Sep 13, 2013
hi smiling, i am new to this site and to trying to get sober myself..u are an inspiration to me...God will heal us all in his time i just know it!

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by SmilingBright, Sep 14, 2013
Welcome to the forum Kaye!!!   Stick close to this forum.  Everyone here is like family.   Yes God will take care of us.  We just have to surrender to Him!!  You can do this !!!

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