Sep 13, 2013
Took my b12 and 5 http first thing this morning!!!! One thing I realized last night as I was starving after coming Hm from working a 10 hr day and being up since 3:45 am w my son throwing up. Is that I came Hm and started stuffing my face. I need to be careful this go round as gaining weight is a HUGE trigger. I get depressed then want to pop a pill. Last time at about the one month mark my lovely pink cloud lifted and depression hit. So I started taking Prozac. Within 3 days I gained 5 pounds. (Umm that freaked me out). So That's when I began slowly taking them again. On the weekends then you know how it goes. I never really freaked out on them and took a whole bunch. But for me taking any amount is just not going to work BC I want to be Close to my awesome God. I want to be HERE. All of me. My emotions and all.
So today I will be careful to not over do it on food. I will hop on the treadmill and see what I can muster up after working my 40 hrs in 4 days. I also need to start reading my bible again. That's one thing I didn't do last time around. I needed to rely on His stregnth to get through this. He is my strength!!!! My source of everything!!!!
Ok day 1 here we go. I'm ready to tackle this beast head on. For I know I am Not alone ever in this battle. Thank you Jesus. I also love all the support of you guys. I need you all!!!! Love Chris. Lets have a great day. Ready for a roller coaster ride. Lol. U guys wil here me go up and down I'm sure. But I'm hanging on tight this time